Crazy, Magic, Sometimes Hectic, Beautiful LIFE!

2010

2010-02-26T15:28:00.001-05:00

heyyy!!! it's already Feb 2010!! i haven't posted here in a while and found myself in need of procrastinating some on this beautiful snowy day... so here I am. lol :)

I have a lot of goals and interests and ideas that I want to post on here... to keep myself in check and also to share w/ anyone that might still happen to read this and of course to go back and read at later dates. :) <--- that is always fun!! I miss blogging. it was my sanity... I really enjoyed all the other blogs I used to read and all the friends I've made along the way... i want to get back into blogging on a regular basis. I think I need it since I can't afford therapy. lol

So one of my things that I really want to do is get on a schedule for EVERYTHING in my life... really I'm serious. So.. if anyone has any ideas, or tips for me please feel free to leave a comment.. I know that not all of life can be planned out and accounted for, but I'd like to get more organized w/ my time and life so let me know what you think.

xoxoxo

12/2009

2009-12-29T14:23:00.002-05:00

so today i'm cleaning and moving some last little things around. getting ready for the NEW YEARS party!! I'm excited, and hoping for NO drama. but some how that doesn't seem possible. we shall see. I hope it just goes smooth, like the Patron all night. ;)
i know i should probably clean my house like this all the time, not just for a party, but really, what would be the fun in that?? lol
yesterday I moved the playroom downstairs and our bedroom upstairs to the playroom, I'm loving it and the kids are loving it too. for now it's working out PERFECT!! we are also moving the computer up to our room, so that will be cool... except for when I want to be on the computer all night playing Bejeweled and Bryan wants to sleep... UGH. we'll have to work that out... although he is way more cranky than I am, so he'll probably win. lol
things are coming along well, and happily, surprisingly the kids are being pretty good... they were EXCELLENT yesterday!! it was AWESOME and I told them a few times how great they were being and thanked them. hey. some times you need that. :) I know I like to be told when I'm doing great and thanked for it. Bryan sort of did that yesterday when he came home, but he was also not too happy that I moved all that stuff by myself up and down the stairs. It's okay, I'm a toughie and I did okay. :) Nice that he was concerned though.
tonight I'm going to finish cleaning and once the kids are in bed, I'm going to work on some HW. I haven't done ANY this break yet, although it hasn't felt like much of a break just yet, each day we have done SOMETHING... but that's okay, I like doing stuff. I wish Bryan had more time off, like the whole time the kids and I are off, but it doesn't work that way. :( oh well. We all go back on Monday and that is also my FIRST day of clinical, and although I was calm as could be for orientation and going over stuff in class and all that, for some reason now, I'm freakin' out! lol ~ not totally freakin', but a little nervous. oh well. i guess that's good. we'll see. I have one client all day... so how bad can i do?? DON'T answer that please!!
I have worked with people before, I love people, most of the time, I am a people person. :) I can do this. I just have to get my confidence into action and I'm sure it'll be okay. I think honestly what I'm most concerned or anxious about is the paper work, not really the one on one w/ my client/resident, that i think i've got in the bag. ~ well maybe I shouldn't say it that way, doesn't sound too good when we are talking about a person. lol ~ anyway, the paper work is confusing as hell to me, and honestly I just don't want to mess it up, although they say that we will ALL mess it up, I just don't want to!! (yes, i'm having a fit!)
so anyway, i'm going to try to go as prepared as possible and see how it goes. we'll see. :) for now I should just get back to clean the "man cave" which I think should either be called a different name, or be cleaned by the "man" lol ~ tomorrow I'm off to run some errands and pay some debts, can't wait!!
I'll probably be back... b/c we all know I'm the queen of procrastination!!! :)

2009-12-22T20:06:00.003-05:00

wanting to clean the house and just get things done, but have no desire to do anything. ~ ugh. wasting some time here, but really have nothing to say.... i guess it means that i should just get up and clean. lol

ugh.

2009-11-22T14:55:00.002-05:00

ugh. my house is TRASHED. there is not one single room that is neat and orderly!! it's killing me. i spend sooo much effing time cleaning and it never shows. not even a little bit. I'm just so sick of it. the playroom is completely a wreck, i try to ignore it though bc it's the playroom and that is what Bryan says it's for, the kids to play in and who cares how it looks. then there is the kitchen... there are Lego's all over the floor that the kids want to "safe" and not put away bc they are playing with them... but they have been there since Thursday night... I'm sick of seeing them, and I'm sick of cleaning them up myself... there are also magnets from off the fridge all over the floor and the food pantry looks like a bomb went off in there! ugh!!!
the dog just peed on the living room carpet, which was also covered in all the blankets off the couch & chair and in the basket bc the kids had them all out along with a mess of toys that they had in there... ~ you can barely see the floor... there is popcorn remnants all over the couch and dog hair too. it's gross!! the kids rooms are TRASHED!! whatever. the bathroom is a mess, full of Barbies and ponies and all kinds of toys in the bath, wash clothes and a hand towel SOAKED on the counter, and toothpaste every where, the garbage is full of crumpled tissues bc the girls have to "blow their nose" every five seconds, although they don't really blow their nose, they are just wasting tissues and making a mess!!
there is laundry to do, still. beds to be made, laundry to be folded and put away, the dogs crate stunk so i had to wash her stuff, I'm just so sick of it all. there is never a break. I'm going crazy. i know, i know, don't sweat the small stuff, but this isn't small, this is an entire house, that i have to continuously clean, and if i stop for even a second then it is trashed all over again and it looks like HELL!! on top of all this i have HW, three chapters due tomorrow and who knows what else, some Math, i think, ugh. and then dinner. I just want to give up. I want to go lay in my bed, put on the tv *that Bryan hasn't hooked up yet, and just lay there and do NOTHING!! I want to not have a care in the world. I'm so done for today. and really i have just started. ugh. ~
i try to get the kids to clean up but they don't. i threaten to throw away their stuff and they say go ahead, probably bc i haven't done it yet. but I'm thinking today might be the day. ~ I've got no patients, a messy house and a box of garbage bags.
i hope i make it through today. i really do.

what is next?

2009-11-20T11:35:00.003-05:00

what does it mean when someone tells you this??

i'm not happy. i have a good life. good family. good friends. but i'm not happy.
i'm always sad. i'm always mad, angry in a bad, horrible mood. if i do find something to make me happy, it doesn't last long. i'm always tired. i don't want to do anything. most of the time i have a headache. life isn't this bad. but for some reason i just can't seem to find the good. to be happy any more.

is there changes they need to make? if so what do you encourage them to change or revise in their life. is there anything you can do? is there anything they can do? what is the next step?

Is It Ever Okay To Cheat?

2009-11-11T08:33:00.004-05:00

Is there ever a time that it's sort of, a little tiny bit, make an exception, turn a blind eye and cheat?? I have been struggling with this question myself. Last weekend, I worked on my homework on Saturday and Sunday being careful to do a really good job, striving for that 100. I felt good. I had read and re-read the chapter, I had studied and knew my stuff. I got to class on Monday morning (different class than I usually am in because of the kids being sick with the flu and my gracious parents being able to miss work to watch them for me) :) and everyone is talking about HW chapter 38. Well hell, I had done chapter 35! shit! What to do now. UGH!! My face got flushed. I was feeling so hot, and for some reason tears welled up in my eyes. I couldn't believe that I had worked so hard on the WRONG homework! I was upset and disappointed and so frustrated with myself, and to top it all off, I was going to get a ZERO! Great. That will average in so nicely to my GPA. I just felt like giving up and going home. The girl next to me Erika, so sweet as she was, said, "do it now. you have a few minutes. try, it wasn't that hard" but I hadn't read the chapter at all, I had no idea what any of it was, and at that time, I couldn't think. My head hurt, my throat was burning my eyes were holding back tears, and I just was so upset. She slid her book closer to mine and said "here... "
I looked around the room. I looked at her. I wasn't sure what to do. I felt this horrible tug-of-war in my head, should I? shouldn't I? What was the right thing to do? It wasn't like I had just not done the homework, it wasn't like I hadn't worked my butt off, but it was my responsibility to make sure I did the RIGHT homework, and I hadn't... what to do, what to do??
I said "thank you so much. I owe you!!" and I copied. I got a 90 and not a zero.
I'm still so unsure how I feel about this. Cheating is cheating. Cheating is wrong. way wrong. BUT, for some reason I can totally justify it in my head. I have three sick children at home. I did do my own work, just the wrong work. I hadn't been slacking, I just made a simple mistake, I wouldn't cheat just because I was being lazy or on a test or quiz or anything like that. It was a homework, it was semi-wrong to do, but I haven't done it before and hopefully will NOT do it again.
So then the battle that begins inside me now is why don't I feel so horribly wrong for cheating on my homework?? Why can I sort of justify it to myself? & How do I ever really thank Erika for saving me all that self-anger and frustration??
I did come home and read chapter 38 ~ did the questions myself and studied it all... I Aced the test on it too. I did put in my time, I just didn't do it at the right time. ~ I did learn a lesson, that I have to double check my calendar to make sure I'm doing the right homework. And, honestly I really triple check it and sometimes more, and made a list in order of the homework chapters I have to do and triple checked that too!
So do you think there is ever a time when cheating is okay?

~thank God for a blog!

2009-10-29T09:56:00.002-04:00

i'm sitting here with tears welling up in my eyes. i'm having a really rough day. ~ i was yelling all morning at the kids, and now have to go off to school instead of staying at their school and doing fun things with them, that i should be there for.

i thought i'd let them sleep in and i'd drive them to school instead of them taking the bus, which comes at 8 AM, not that early but we get up around 7 to get ready in time. ~ well first we couldn't find Lauren's lunch bag, then nobody wanted to wear what i had out for them, it was one fight after another, about everything. breakfast, what they wanted for lunch, clothes, brushing teeth, washing hands and faces, what shoes, putting shoes on, coats, everything. i'm drained. and the worst part is, i yelled pretty much all morning. how horrible. :( on the way to school i apologized and we fixed things, but still not a good morning for any of us, I'm sure.

then i take Trevor to school, he is okay and happy, and the girls are just miserable. they cried the entire way to the truck... i'm not even sure what they were fussing about. :( ~ but we get in the truck, put the music up, sing and dance and be silly, things are looking okay. we get to the school, they don't want to go. not even Brooke, who LOVES school and has NEVER not wanted to go... ugh. my heart is breaking. i get them out. they go in the school they are both really clingy. they are doing trunk-or-treating at their school today... i cant be there. i can't help out. can't decorate my truck and give candy, i can't even go with them... bc i have school. :( mommy guilt has set in BIG TIME. then they don't want to wear their costumes, or do anything. they just want to go home. :( i'm sure they are fine now, but still my heart is breaking.

sometimes, i have a really hard time with wondering if i'm making the right choices in my life, or even just making good choices. who knows what is right.... but we do know good from bad, right? school is good. i guess. it's taking a lot of time away from my family and mostly my kids. i feel it. i'm sure they feel it. who is it going to benefit? how will it benefit them? i'm stressed. i'm lost. i want to go get my kids from school, take them to lunch and chase them on the playground. i want to bring them home and make Halloween decorations and make cookies and watch movies all snuggled up together.

i miss my kiddies. ~ and i'm absolutely horrible for yelling all morning. :( that is probably the part that is killing me the most. guilt. i hope they are having a good day. i hope they aren't upset and feeling crummy. i hope they have today. making scarecrows, and trunk-or-treating. ~ i'll be counting down the minutes till i can go get them later. :)

for now, i'm going to go wash my face, try to get myself pulled together and then head off to school... is this the right choice??????????????????????????????????????????????????

2009-08-06T10:24:00.002-04:00

beach day yesterday. Sandy Hook, NJ. had a GREAT day.
went with the fam, of course, and also Jason, it was his 21st bday, Kristin, Sabryna, Alyssa & Richie. we had a lot fun, sun and SAND. lol the kids had a blast. Trevor was using Bryan's boogie board and did AWESOME. Swim lessons have paid off... not that he knows how to swim... but bc he is really a lot more comfortable in the water. He kept falling off and going under, or getting knocked around by waves and going under or getting splashed right in his face and he handled it like a true champ!! :) Thank you YMCA for that. ;) & Speaking of that... Today is Trevor's last day of swimming lessons... he missed yesterday, unfortunately, but going to the beach more than made up for swimming lessons!!

I also had some good progress at the beach yesterday... I wore a bathing suit for the first time in NINE years. not just in public, but for the first time EVER in nine years. and you know what... it wasn't so bad. lol i didn't feel like a runway model in it... and i sure as hell didn't feel sexy or like a hot momma... but I also didn't feel like a HUGE fat cow or a beached whale... so it was a good day. :)

the girls warmed up to the water and ended up having a blast running in and out of the waves all day... which was nice. :) we also played in the sand some... which they LOVED... as a matter of fact Brooke brought more than half the beach home with her in her hair and on her body... even after rinsing off! lol

We had a great time! :) the only thing that sort of sucks... is bc of having so much fun and just really enjoying the day... I only took about 4 or 5 pictures. :( Which sucks. BUT is okay bc, that means that i really enjoyed the day and didn't spend it behind the camera... i experienced it all first hand in real life. :)

well the kids are just hanging out and that is kind of what i'm planning for today also, but i do have to empty the truck out from yesterday and while it's nice and sunny out, i think i'll hang out some laundry too! which means I have to wash some first. :)

peace love and sunshine!!

Prayers Please...

2009-08-03T12:03:00.001-04:00

I'm only here for a minute to post that Crystal, a dear bloggy friend needs prayers for her BF's leg and ankle... I got some details from Jenn that he was in a motocross accident and has some healing to do... things aren't great but they are better after surgery... so please pray for him to recover and be okay... he still isn't out of the woods just yet...
thank you!
xo

$elling Photos

2009-07-23T12:19:00.002-04:00

I was interetested to know if anyone has ever sold their photos online? I heard about an offer to sell photos online... random things... I wouldn't ever sell photos of my children... but of sunsets, plyagrounds, senery, lakes, camping, pets.... things like that I would definitely be interested! If anyone has done this before and has any suggestions and/or advice I'd love to hear from you... and if you haven't done it before and have suggestions and/or advice I'd love to hear your thoughts as well! :)

buzz buzz...

2009-07-16T09:32:00.003-04:00

we are busy little bees over here at our house. we are all doing stuff to enjoy the Summer, as it flies by, and getting ready for our first camping trip of the 2009 season. It sucks that it's the first one and we are already in the middle of July, but can't change that ~ so we are just going to enjoy it!! I'm not sure how much more camping we will get in this year... we have a lot to do around the house and Bryan is forever getting side work that keeps him busy not to mention his job too! Also there is our cruise in Sept. I cannot wait... but at the same time, I don't want to rush the Summer... it goes by way to fast as it is. :(

yesterday we hung out all day. i was exhausted. probably from not sleeping well two night before, it finally caught up with me... but we did accomplish a few things... we got Trevor transferred, officially, to his new school and we also checked out the YMCA gym & might get Trev some swimming lessons!! woo hoo!! He loves being in the pool and at 5 1/2 should really be swimming on his own... so we'll see how that goes. Next year we'll get the girls some, I'm sure they could learn but I'm not sure how willing they are to do so. Brooke is very nervous in the pool, and Lauren is very shy... so I think it will be better to wait till next year.

last night we went out on the boat for a little bit... we docked and the kids went "swimming" for a little bit by this sandy beach area, really we all just splashed each other and had a good time... Trevor swam around the boat by himself (with a life jacket on) and we sailed off... we went up and down the entire lake to both ends... each kid had a chance to drive the boat by themselves, which they all LOVED!! we got to see some dogs on jet skis... which was really cute... they even had on their life jackets! :)

we came home, ate some dinner, and then the kids were hanging out watching TV... Bryan was doing the same and I went to bed. I was totally wiped out. I was in bed by 8:34 PM and probably sound asleep by 9:00 PM... it was great!! I feel pretty good today. I think I may need to do that more often.

Since I'm well rested today and we leave tomorrow, I am going to bust my butt around here and CLEAN clean CLEAN till the cows come home... or I drop dead of exhaustion... but I have to pack some stuff for our trip, and I LOVE coming home to a sparkling clean house so that is what I'm going to strive for today!! :)

It started off raining today... but has stopped... which is very nice... hopefully it will stay nice & the kids can be outside and playing!! I get a lot more done when there aren't little people under my feet! lol Plus they are most happy when they can be outside. :)

I might be back with an update on how all is going. I also want to get some pics up of Trevor's first MX race last Saturday. It was totally awesome! I know I haven't written about it... yet, but I hope to get to it. :)

xox

What is today???

2009-07-10T09:37:00.002-04:00

seriously... what is today?? I think it's Friday, but I can't be sure... ahhhh... Summer has finally taken over! lol

Well anyway... yesterday I did a ton of laundry... and it was nice to get it done up... doesn't mean that I'm done with it just yet... but thankfully I'm catching up. I had a lot because I was washing bedding and clothes that were in storage bins. I also have a brand new, fancy dancy, clothes line that I am able to hang clothes out on and that makes me very happy!! :) I had an old one that I found and put up, but it wasn't so great, and then the other night Bryan came home with all the stuff to put a brand new one for me. I only wish it was a LOT longer or that I had two of them... it takes a long time for stuff to dry here... I think because there isn't as much of a breeze here because we are protected by all the trees and also because there doesn't seem to be as much sun, again because of all the trees... BUT one of these days a LOT of our trees are going to go... so then maybe things will dry quicker. Who knows.

Anyway... we hung out at home all day yesterday till the afternoon then went over to my parents house... the kids played, I cleaned and then we headed home. I made some pancakes for dinner, they were YUMMY! Then all the kids had a bath, not together, but anyway... and then off to bed. Soon after they were in bed, I fell asleep on the couch... I think I'm just as tired and worn out as they are by our busy days and late nights. lol

They are usually up early too. By 8 AM at the latest... and really it's usually well before 8 that they are up. Lauren today though, slept till 9:30 and is still laying in her bed relaxing. Good for her... she must really need it. Trevor and Brooke are up and running around like crazies! lol

Today we aren't doing much... the septic needs to be pumped out so they are coming today to take care of that.. and that's a good thing... some time this morning I think they will be here, we are also waiting for a package from Fed-Ex for Trevor's racing gear... he has his VERY FIRST race this Sunday!! I'm a nervous wreck!! He needed almost everything but his bike new!! He has outgrown even his helmet...

His dad ordered him...
new tires to help him get better traction on the track
new helmet
new gloves
new jersey
new pants
new socks
new boots
knee pads
elbow pads
graphics for his bike
and he is officially number 46!!! two of my favorite numbers and also Bryan's old numbers!! :)

sooooo on Sunday everyone say a little whoot whoot for #46!!! :)

Anyway... we are just hanging out here for now, my mom is home today, she is making a whole lotta pies for the boy scouts to sell at a bicentennial of White Lake gathering on Saturday... and my dad is home today too, and they have my nephew & niece... Matthew & Julia so I'm not sure if we will go over today and hang out some to keep everyone company or if it would be easier if we just stayed home and they could do their thing. lol

Well I guess I should get going and make some breakfast for us all... tootle loooo

Old Friends...

2009-07-08T10:32:00.004-04:00

today I'm at my parents house, with the kids. we are waiting for our "guests" to arrive. our "guests" today are one of my best friends from my childhood and her two daughters, Brooke & Brianna. My kids are very excited to get to play with other children!! Trevor is actually standing in the dinning room watching out the window to see when they pull up. :) I'm very anxious too!! I'm also a little nervous... I really hope that my children show their true colors and are very well behaved... they can some times be out of control and not so friendly... especially with one another... but usually when it comes to manners and other children and people they are pretty good. :)

Brenda lived down the road from our house growing up... her older brother Peter was the same age as my older brother Ralph, and her younger brother, Paul, was a few years younger than my younger brother Ryan... it's actually pretty funny because another good friend of ours that we grew up with, Meghan, had an older and younger brother too, they were the same age as Brenda's brother. lol Anyway, we spent a lot of time together hanging out. We would ride bike and go for hikes and sleep over at each others houses. We were in girl scouts together, her mom was our leader, we also did a lot of camping together. It was always a good time with Brenda. She and I had our first "boyfriends" together when we were in 6th grade... lol they were twins. Jesse & Shane Brock. Jesse was my bf and Shane was Brenda's. :) pretty funny!! We were also crazy for NKOTB!! I remember us both posing for pictures with a poster of them on my wall in my room. We were DORKS!! lol but we always got a long so well!! After 6th grade her family moved to PA... near Avoca, we still were able to keep in touch... we hung out in the Summer and I even got to spend some time with her in the Winter too, it was the first time I went skiing... she showed me what to do... it was pretty fun... but I got hurt... they took care of me. :) We had a lot of good times and made great memories... when she moved away, of course, she made new friends, but that just meant that I got to meet new people too. :) She was part of the marching band at her new school and introduced me to everyone. We would play tag and other games with the kids in her neighborhood and walk to the local convenience store and get candy... and go for walks and just hang out!! There was a playground and railroad tracks by her house we would hang out near them. You could hear the planes taking off from the airport all day, but they seemed really noticeable at night... when I would be slightly home sick... not bc I wasn't having fun, but just bc I was far from home. lol I remember the smell of creosote, I actually love that smell... it always takes me back to spending time with Brenda and her family.

Brenda was an excellent gymnast... I loved watching her do gymnastics... she was AWESOME!! We went to a street fair where they had a parade when she lived in PA and she was part of doing diff stunts and tricks with gymnastics... I was always so impressed and awed by her talents. :)

She came to NY for my sweet sixteen party and spent the weekend with us... it was so nice to have her here!! We stayed in contact through out high school until we graduated, but then some how lost touch. :( When I was pregnant with Trevor, my mom tried to contact her... to see if she was around to be able to come to my shower so I would get to see her... she couldn't get in touch with her, but thought that she was living in CO... she did have family out there... then when I was getting married my mom tried to find her again for me... I would have loved to have her at my wedding... or be part of my wedding... she has been one of my best friends longer than anyone else! :) But unfortunately we couldn't contact her.

One day I was fishing around on FB and found her brother!! I was soooo happy! I contacted him and asked him about his family and of course his sister. He told me she was living in PA, married and had two daughters! He also gave me her email address!! I was so happy that I finally could be in contact with her again and possible get to see one another. We emailed back and forth some, discovering quickly that we both had named our daughters Brooke! :) How funny is that? And getting to catch up some. She is also a SAHM. She looks great. She looks the same as I remember her last. & her daughters are BEAUTIFUL... of course!

Well today is the day!! We are meeting!! I cannot wait to see her... although I'm nervous, I'm sure that it will go great and we'll find tons to talk about and catch up on... I have so many questions for her...

I'll be back to post more after our visit.

xox

playing catch up....

2009-07-08T01:47:00.003-04:00

Hmmmm... what did we do this weekend and week (so far).....

Okay... so Friday... I can't remember. Friday Bryan was off from work... for the HOLIDAY weekend... which was nice. We all slept in some... and then hung out doing a few things at home. Bryan got Trevor's motocross bike all spift up and ready for him to go out and practice at the track... his first time on the real track.... he has been on a track that Bryan made him here at the house and at the old house and has road his bike at Bryan's mom's house too, but he was excited to be on the real track. I was happy for him and NERVOUS as hell. He did great. On Friday I also meet Adelle & Amanda (she works with Adelle) for lunch, it was nice... we had Chinese!! YUM...

OH Yeah... on Thursday we went to the CIRCUS!!! we have gone for the last three years... this was the first time we took the girls to it... not sure why we didn't take them last year... maybe so we could do something with just Trevor so he had some one on one time, not sure... but they all LOVED it. It was different than the last few years so that was nice, but it always cute. Nothing too extraordinary, but something fun and local to do with the kids. :) We went to the earlier showing so after that we grabbed a pizza and a chick parm hero and went to see Bry's mom and Lowell at the campground where they have their camper for the Summer. They just put it in the weekend before. We hung out there for a while after having dinner, the kids had fun... they got to make some marshmallows while there, which is one of their favorite things to do... AND they are actually getting pretty good at it and will even eat most of them, themselves!!! lol Trevor is really good at getting most of his just right... a little brown all the way around and melted all the way through!! :)

Okay... back to Friday... I took the girls and their bikes up to the track for them to ride while Trev practiced.. Adelle meet us up there, or shall I say we met her, she was there first. lol They had a good time, but were tired... so a little cranky and I had NO voice almost... it started going at the circus for whatever reason, I wasn't even yelling or anything just started loosing it, and then it hasn't come back yet... But anyway... we did the track thing... My poor lil' boy got hurt... he fell and the foot peg went into his knee... did a pretty nasty gash/cut... deep too, and had his leg lumped up and bruised good too. :( Broke my heart to see him in pain... I can't take my kids being hurt... we got him some ice and he sat in the back of truck for a little while still not feeling great. I gave him some Motrin and put a band aid with antibiotic cream on it on his knee and he said it still hurt... I can only imagine... poor dude!! He did however want to go back out on the track... that night even and was kind of upset with Bryan and I when we told him no. I was concerned about how bad his knee was hurt... he hadn't walked on it yet since he hurt it... there was NO way I was letting him back out.

He did walk on it and it was okay... just really sore, we got home and laid him on the couch with his knee elevated ... he fell asleep pretty quickly.. he was tuckered out... long day and did a lot of laps on the bike... while he slept I put an ice pack on his knee... I think it helped keep the swelling down some... I hope it helped ease some of the pain...he slept through the night but in the morning said it still hurt. I imagine it did. But he is a trooper and still did okay playing with it... even went on the trampoline ~ which Bryan and I got the sides up and Bryan tied it all down so no one can get hurt falling off of it again. (Lauren fell off of it about a month ago and hit her face hard on a 4 x 4 piece of wood... my poor baby ~ I took her to Urgent Care, and thankfully everything was okay with her)

So Saturday ~ July 4th ~ we hung out in the morning all playing outside, jumping on the trampoline together and having fun... did some house work and stuff... got things ready for later... then got the kids and ourselves ready and headed to the store to grab a few things... Wally World was on lock down bc they had a missing child... a 7 1/2 month old... it was horrible... long story short after several hours, they found the little girl... Brook, face down in mud about a 1/4 mile from Wal-Mart... the father put her there... then went to W-M and said she was stolen from his stroller... he is piece of shit and should die a slow painful death. thankfully they found the baby and she was unharmed. what a dirtbag. i could go on, but i'm not.

anyway... we got some stuff and headed to Bryan's mom's campsite... his brother and sister-in-law and niece were here from NC... on a surprise visit... it was nice to see them. Bry's other brothers, Kevin and Joey were there too... it was his mom, step-father, brother Danny, wife Christy, daughter Alyssa, brother Kevin, daughters, Katelyn and Lacy, brother Joey and wife Cassie, his grandparents, a family friend Liz, us then later, his sister Shelby, cousins, Kelsea, Andrew, Eileen, and Kelsea's boyfriend came, and so did Steve & Adelle and Richie and Alyssa... it was a good time. :)

the fireworks were okay... we also left the camp and went to see the fireworks at the race track... they were nice. :)

the kids were sleeping for the second fireworks, but they didn't even know they missed anything and they were tired out... it was a long day... they had put on a lot of of miles... with starting off the day on the trampoline to running around the campground... it was a lot. :)

We all came home and went to bed. :)

Sunday Bryan went off on his road bike with Steve to a diff moto track to watch the races, so the kids and I packed up and went to my parents house... they had a blast... first my dad set up the kiddie pool for them, and they had fun in that. They also played in the sandbox and on the swing set and rode their bikes some... then my dad, being the WONDERFUL Grandpa that he is, took all three kids in the big pool!!! THEY LOVED IT!! Trevor has been in a few times this year already & loves it.. this was the girls first time this year and they had a great time... they were both a little nervous at first... but Lauren warmed up to it really quickly and Brooke came around soon there after!! :) I'm glad the enjoy it... I wish that they could get swimming lessons so they could all be swimming this Summer, but that isn't too likely. Maybe I can find a book or website that tells you how to teach your child to swim. Trevor will be 6 in Sept... I think that maybe he should know how to swim already... the only problem is not having a lot of time to practice... we only have a few short months of Summer and we don't always have access to water... unless I get him swimming in the big bath. lol

We had dinner with my parents and my brother, nephew ~ Walter and my sister-in-law had shown up so they ate with us too. The kids loved getting to see Walter, but they were all tuckered out... another busy and long day! Not too long after dinner, I got the truck all loaded up and headed home...

After getting home, I got a message from a friend of mine.. Bee... she was home recovering from surgery that she had the week before, and said she would LOVE some company... it was only a little after 7 so I hopped in the truck and went to see her. She only lives a few mins from me and it was nice to get to visit and to get out of the house w/o the kids. :) I love them, but a break every now and then is soooo nice!! Plus, I haven't talked/visited with Bee in ages. I see her every now and then and see her at the dental office, but it isn't the same as getting a few hours to just shoot the bull... we were chatting so much that it was after 11 when we realized the time... I didn't mind bc it was a really nice visit. I'm going to go back again soon... she is out for 6 wks... ugh... and I'm sure is bored at home. lol when she is feeling much better and up to it... I'll take the kids over too... we'll see though, she is still newly recovering. :)

Then let's see... Monday, Monday... what happened on Monday???? oh yeah... I put up my new clothes line... and happily hung out two loads of laundry... I also cleaned the deck off, cleaned the patio set ~ table and chairs and re-arranged the deck so that we can sit out there for dinner and stuff... and cleaned up the yard some and did some stuff to make our tiny backyard more user friendly! :) (** our property isn't really that small it's over an acre, the problem is that it's on a hill and covered in trees... we are going to work on both problems, but not just yet.. it takes money and time... we have some time, but very little money right now... so for now we have to make due with the yard we do have... so it was nice to move things around... make the table usable and also create a little seating area in the grass with some Adirondack chairs and a small plastic table... We also ate dinner at the outside patio table on Monday... the kids LOVED it. & the weather was perfect for it.. there weren't even any bugs!! it was GREAT!! :) Monday night after dinner we all went to the lake...we drove down instead of walking so we could get more time in at the lake... Bryan and Trevor slapped on some life jackets and tried out the new jet ski... they had a good time but it was almost out of gas so they didn't spend too much time on it... just enough. :) we all hung out on the beach and docks while the kids played in the water... then it was getting a little chilly to be wet as the sun set, so we decided enough lake, lets jump in the hot tub... we spent 40 mins in there.. it was heaven!! it wasn't really hot at all, it was some where around 95 so it was okay for the kids to be in there... i know hot tubs aren't safe for kids bc if they are too hot the kids can get a fever from it bc their body isn't that good at controlling it's temp just yet... but they were safe and enjoying the jets with us. :) it was a nice family night. :) we then came home, changed and watched some tv together before heading off to bed.

I stupidly wore my pedometer into the hot tub... but thankfully it still works fine. :) I'm amazed. the only bad thing that happened was when i was drying it off i accidentally reset it... but I knew what the numbers were from looking at it to see if it was ruined... so I just wrote them down on Monday and started over again today. :)

Today we did nothing much... OH!!! yeah. yesterday.... aka Monday, we went to check our mail at the PO... it has been a LONG while since we got it... and while we were out and about we got some ice cream at the Candy Cone! :) the kids LOVED it... they were EXCELLENT while we were there... amazing little listeners!! :)

Today it rained here... the washer leaked all over, and I did some good cleaning in my bedroom and closet... made some headway... it's looking better in there... got rid of some stuff and organized some other things... can't wait for my closet to be done... need to get all the hardware... would love a California Closet... but they are a lot of money... will settle for Bryan and I picking out some things at Home Depot or Lowe's and doing it ourselves... I'm sure it will come out great... Bry is really handy so that isn't a problem at all and I think together we will come up with a great design!!

I also went to my parents house to hang out for a little while tonight... had a nice visit with my mom and Ellen and my dad some... he was out and the was watching the game. :) went through some baby pics of Trevor... he has grown soooo much... it's unbelievable.. and went through some pics from last summer... they have all changed and grown so much in the last year, it's scary how fast time is going and how big they are getting.

And, now I'm up typing this bc I can't sleep... ugh!! maybe I'll go watch some TV bc my back and neck are killing me now...

nighty night!

- fifteen

2009-07-02T14:20:00.003-04:00

in a little less than 15 mins I was able to run & walk up my driveway 10X and do 30 jumping jacks and a few quick runs back and forth across the end of my driveway!! GO ME!! I want to work out but don't have the time or $$ for Zumba or the gym, so I'm doing my own boot camp.
Now time for some Yoga before continuing with house work. :)

Summertime...

2009-07-01T16:51:00.002-04:00

Summertime and it's awesome. I'm really enjoying every minute of this summer with my children. Maybe because this is a our last summer before everyone is off to school and then eventually I'll be off working some where... who knows, but it's great. We haven't really done anything more than go for walks, play in the rain (which we get daily for three or four weeks now, probably longer), go to the lake and hang out. It's wonderful. We stay up late, and sleep in, it's vacation, every day, all day! :)

I was going to try to start with the firs day of Summer vacation, which would have been Trevor's last day of school, or the day after, but I don't really feel like it... I have a million and six things to do in the house and make dinner and all that... so I just thought that if I started with today then that would be a good place to start and I would continue on from here...

This morning we all ate some breakfast, hung out and then headed to Wally World for some pictures... got there picked our pics, and waited our hour... then we waited another hour... then finally we realized that our pictures just weren't going to come. We had some conversations with people... some were very friendly and helpful, others not so much... but in the end it all worked out bc Venus from Wal-Mart Photo called and my pictures are ready and... are you ready... they are FREE!! 215 photos FREE!! woo hoo!! Maybe because I was totally cool with Venus, and didn't jump on her about all this... after all there was no reason to be nasty with her... it wasn't her fault at all... it was FUJI... although I am very happy with my prints prior to this... today sucked. We waisted like 3 hrs in Wally World! ugh. BUT the day does have more of a happy ending than that... we rushed home, grabbed some waters, cheese sticks and some crackers, threw our suits on and grabbed some towels and headed to the lake... it was raining some, but nothing that was going to keep us home... not after being in Wally World for 3 hours!!
The kids played and I tried to clean up the beach some for Bryan, and then weeded the flower beds for him... while we were there something caught my eye... it was three houses down... a big pine tree... and in the big pine tree were TWO Bald Eagles! They were amazing! They were HUGE!!! They were close enough to see, but too far for great pics. UGH! but we saw them. And I did try to take some pics... so that is good. We also got to see them fly out over the lake... they are so beautiful and majestic. It was so amazing. The kids got a kick out of it too. They were really good for me in Wal-Mart today so I'm glad they got to do something fun and relaxing and see something awesome! :)

Well we are home now, the girls are in the bath... not enough water today I guess, and T-bone is riding his new bike... we got him a new one on Saturday when we went to make a HUGE payment on our CRUISE!! it's getting closer!! :)

I'm working on dinner and really tired. But if I don't get up now, two things will happen, one, dinner will burn, two we'll all be hungry! lol

ttfn

What do you want to be when you grow up?

2009-06-26T16:24:00.003-04:00

Today on the way to drop Trevor off at school the kids and I were talking... I asked them what they wanted to be when they grew up...

Trevor at age 5 1/2 said he wants to be a Motocross rider... like Bubba Stewart! He also wants to be a chef, have his own cooking show, take care of sick animals and animals that are "in danger", he also wants to write books, be a builder and be a zoo keeper. :) I love his ambitions and I really hope all his dreams come true!

Brooke at age 3 1/2 said that she wants to ride a horse when she grows up. :) I love horse back riding, and hopefully we can do this as a family one of these days! :) I love her ideas, she is such a day dreamer, it's great.

Lauren at age 3 1/2 said she wants to be a "mystery finder" aka a detective to find all the toys for Santa and then be Santa's helper and wrap the presents and take them to all the kids! LOVE this. Who has ever heard of someone wanting to be Santa's helper when they grow up?? I haven't. Maybe I just don't ask enough kids what they want to be though.

I wanted to save this quick before I forgot. I love their answers!

ants in the pants

2009-06-16T09:45:00.002-04:00

i'm here. feeling antsy today.
not sure why. have a ton of stuff i could and should be doing. but not really in the mood to start.
had a busy and very full weekend. maybe i'm feeling the hang over from all that.
Bryan's brother, Jason, his girlfriend Kristin and their daughter Sabryna were here visiting from FL and we had a party for them on Friday night. It was nice. We did a bunch more work downstairs before Friday... which needed to get done anyway... so it was a good excuse to work on it all.
I also sanded the doors up stairs... the bathroom, hall closet, girls' and Trevor's doors so that we can paint them white. They were really rough because they and this heavy wall paper on them, and when we took that off bc it was HIDEOUS the glue was really abrasive... it took a while to sand them down but I got all of them done in one afternoon, they are back up for now, but i will take them down and paint them soon!! I think it will give a whole fresh look to the up stairs to have them painted fresh WHITE!! :)
anyway... back on track... the party was GREAT! I think that Jason and Kristin had a good time too. They didn't bring Sabryna, which the kids were really looking forward to, but they did bring her back on Sunday for a visit and we saw they last night for one last time before they go home today. :(
Saturday we just hung out and then went over to my parents house...first just Lauren and I went... then Bryan came over a few hours later with Brooke and Trevor, it was nice for me to have some time one on one with Lauren... and I think they all really need some one on one time... the other night... I guess it was Thursday night... or maybe Wednesday... I took just Brooke when I went to Wal-Mart to grab some groceries... she was a perfect little angel. I think they really enjoy just getting some time by themselves... like most people. And I know that I enjoy a break sometimes, so I can imagine they feel the same... I mean they are all always together too. We all hung out there for a while, then Trevor and Bryan got some time without any of us girls... they went home and hopped on their bikes and went for a LONG bike ride. :) Trevor is always asking to go for a bike ride... he loves to ride. When we all go... Bryan and Trev ride their bikes and the girls and I walk... well the girls walk and ride... I bring the stroller so I don't end up having to carry them ~ so although it's nice family time together... the boys are always waiting for us and we also don't go as far as they can go by themselves.
So it seems like we have all been getting time together... one on one. :) Soon Bryan and I will be having some time together without the kids... our cruise is in 88 days!! woo hoo!! AND our passports came today!! I'm so excited!!
Then on Sunday Bryan's dad's side of the family was having a party at a park near us... so we did that... it was nice they kids played... they have a playground there, and then we took them to the lake, and they got to swim... which they LOVED!! and then we hung out some more, and then on our way home stopped at my parents house so the girls could ride their NEW BIKES!!
We took all our change in and got the girls two wheel bikes... they needed new bikes, theirs are trashed and they were ready for bigger bikes anyway... they could have even gone a little bigger than what we got them bc they rode that size at my brothers house, and did GREAT... but we got ones that are perfect for now bc we think they will be a lot safer and have more fun on them... plus they might last them through next Summer too, but will definitely work for this summer, and right now, that is all that matters! :) Trevor got a new helmet... he will be the next one to get a new bike... we just have to refresh our funds some first.
Then last night we went to Bryan's mom's house to see his brother and family again they are leaving today. :( It was a nice time hanging out... all the kids got a long well. And we had a cook out... always good when there is food. I just wish I knew we were cooking out I would have brought something... I felt horrible to come empty handed. Oh well, I guess there is always next time.
I'd love to be able to load the truck up with some toys that we wanted to give to Sabryna but wouldn't fit in their car, and of course the kids and stuff and drive down to FL for a long weekend... or LONGER... but we can't really afford the gas to drive down and our truck needs some work before we can take it that far... new tires, front end alignment, oil change and new brakes... so maybe one of these days. we'll see.
well i guess i should get off the computer and get my butt in gear... today I'm cleaning and organizing the playroom... which is a DISASTER!! wow. I am going to sort stuff that we will get rid of, give away, possibly sell, and stuff the can go in the camper... then clean the rest... then i'm hoping to get to do a thorough cleaning in the kitchen and then straighten up and freshen up the living room, bathroom and kids rooms, bc they aren't too bad since I spent all last week cleaning them... so we'll see... maybe I will actually get to accomplish all that... or maybe not... or maybe I'll do all that and more... we'll see.
I also have a million and six pictures I want to get on my other blog... but my computer is really bogged down with memory and all that so I can't put them on there until I get something done with the others that are already there... UGH!!
well anyway... adios!

2009-06-11T09:31:00.002-04:00

two hour delay in the middle of June?? what is up with that??
i guess there were some problems at our schools bus garage this morning because the entire school district is on a two hour delay... i'm sure the kids are LOVING this. and i have to admit it is pretty cool that there is a two hour delay in on June 11th. :)

T-b0ne would probably enjoy going to school two hours later than normal IF he were going to school, but unfortunately my lil' guy isn't feeling too well... he has one hell of a cold and has been up coughing most nights... and he has been having a temp here and there... just drained out. :(

I'm hoping he will at least make it on Friday... but we'll see.
We are so close to the end of the year that I want him to get in all the fun times. :)

zoe got skunked this past friday... right in her face. ugh. poor dog... and now poor house and poor us. everything stinks. it is HORRIBLE!! i have bathed her in a million and twelve different things... the problem is that is is her nose that smells. (hahahaha) ~ no pun intended though. since she got hit right in the face it's her entire snout that smells horrible... and there is nothing I can do to get it to go away... and it is really bad. when she is inside the house... because she is an inside dog, the entire house smells from her. I cannot take it anymore!! ugh!!!

i wonder how long it will last??

well anyway... i'm off to do more cleaning... we are having guests over tomorrow night because my brother-in-law, his girlfriend and their daughter are here from FL and we are having a little get together so everyone can see them and hang out some. :) should be fun!!

so i'm off...

TGIF & stuff

2009-05-08T11:36:00.002-04:00

thank goodness today is Friday... although i'm not sure why i'm so happy that it is Friday. I guess bc then my boy is home with me for the weekend, and I do love spending time with all the kids. i still miss him while he's at school. I'm not really sure that feeling will ever dissipate. I know a lot of parents say that they don't miss their kids, but i sure do. I can't wait to go pick him up every day and get a HUGE hug from him while his face lights up with one of the biggest smiles. I just LOVE it. it melts my heart.... every. single. time. He is awesome!!

and speaking of all this... i am very anxious about starting school myself. it's been 12+ years since i have been in school... but i'm really looking forward to it more than if i had gone right after HS. I hated school... i did just what i had to do to get by... and NOTHING more. i know not good. but now i'm roaring and ready to go. i cannot wait. i'm looking forward to getting my books and getting school supplies and starting. i wish i could get my books now... or sometime in the Summer at least.... i'd love to get to look them over and see what I will be learning. :) unfortunately we can't get them till the end of August at the earliest... but Adelle and I are going to be able to get our books earlier than others bc of going on the cruise and we are also going to be able to get some assignments before hand too, so we can do them before the cruise and get them turned in so we aren't missing anything while we are away. :)

we are going to have two to three hours of homework each night... that is kind of scary.. but i'm looking forward to it for some strange reason... and thankfully i will most likely be the only one having homework... Trevor will have some here and there... bc he has some now in Kindergarten... so i think in first grade he might have some and maybe a little more often than now... although i can't be sure bc he will have a different teacher and will be in a different school all together.

last night i had so many things going through my mind it took me a while to fall asleep... i guess i just need to try to organize everything a little better and i will feel more at ease with it all.

a few things that i was thinking about are...

Lauren and Brooke are starting school for the FIRST time.
Trevor will be starting First grade in a NEW school.
I'll be starting nursing school for the FIRST time.

and it will all be on the same day! I'm freakin' out. I want to make sure the girls are okay. I want to be able to stand outside their classrooms and run right in if they need me, I want to at least be able to be in the parking lot if they need me... but i can't. i will be off at school myself.

i want to be able to stay with Trevor and see his new class and meet his new friends and teacher and all that... but i won't be able to.

i'm nervous and anxious about it all working out. i'm not sure how it will all work out. all of a sudden i'm sort of having anxiety... i'm sure it will all go a lot smoother than i'm thinking... but we'll see.
i'm going to make Bryan take the day off so that we can go together to take Trevor to school and then take the girls to pre-school and then maybe he will just stay off for the day so that if there are any problems with the kids he can go take care of it... i'm sure there won't be any problems, but you never know. i wouldn't want any of them to be upset all day and crying or missing me, or Bryan... ugh. **SIGH!!**

well anyway... at least getting it out makes me feel better... for now.

I'm off to clean and get some things done so i can hurry up and get my boy from school... and HUG him tight... kiss him and tell him how much I LOVE HIM!! :)

xoxox

It's Official

2009-05-07T16:00:00.003-04:00

It's official!! Today I went for my interview about going to nursing school and I'm officially an accepted student for the LPN program!! :)

yay!! It was an awesome interview and I was more than flattered by how great the director was. I know I'm going to love school and do great in this program!! I can't wait. :) There are still a few minor things I need to get in order... like my shot records and also a physical and some titers done... but that is all peanuts compared to what I just got done to get in!! :) I can do it! :)

thank you all for the well wishes, and crossing of fingers and everything else! you guys are an awesome support system, I'll need you all when I'm working my butt off in school!! :)

xoxoxo

New GOOD News!!

2009-05-06T18:18:00.003-04:00

soo....

part of my plan for when the kids are all in school this Fall is unfolding... I passed an entrance exam to get into nursing school... an LPN program to be exact. I'm very excited. I wasn't sure how I would do on the test, so I was keeping it under wraps... but now that I have passed I'm tellin' the whole world!! :)

Tomorrow I go for an interview with the director of the Health Occupations department at BOCES and will hopefully get accepted into the program.

keep your fingers crossed.

2009-05-06T11:14:00.002-04:00

freezing cold.
what happened to warm weather?
trying to get motivated.
procrastination, my middle name.

off to clean, gotta get something done around here.
happy hump day... made it to the middle of the week.

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y!!

2009-05-02T09:57:00.002-04:00

okay, first things first...

***TREVOR lost his FIRST tooth!! And by "lost" I mean... totally lost. He swallowed it. :( He was so upset. Poor kid! I felt horrible and I have to admit I was a little disappointed myself. I wanted to keep it... it was after all his first baby tooth that he lost. But after we told him the tooth fairy would still leave him something under his pillow he cheered up. He was really concerned about that part.... like most kids. :) And the tooth fairy came through with shining colors!! She left him $2 :) Way to go tooth fairy!

She was in and out of here before I even got home last night... and did a great job!!

I went to ZUMBA last night and had an awesome workout!! I haven't been in too long! :( It felt so good to burn so bad. I was really sweating up a storm too, and although it's gross it's awesome to know your body is working that hard! I think I'm going to to try to get to ZUMBA again tonight at an extra class they are holding. I'd love to make it but I'm not sure bc it's right at 5 o'clock and that is usually dinner time for us... I'd have to leave about 4:30 and wouldn't get back till about 6:30 , not that two hours is really that long, but I'm just not sure what we are doing today. I think we are going to camp over at my parents house in our camper. Just for something different for the kids. I think they will LOVE it. I just wish it was a little warmer out. But we'll see. I have TONS of blankets and I'm sure that Bryan can fire up the heater. :)

Well I have to go get the girlies in the bath. Trevor went first, and while he was in there I painted the girls finger and toe nails ~ they look so cute! It's bright red, so it's really noticeable. :) I know some people are against painting little girls nails in general and some would really have a fit about red on little girls, but I LOVE it!! They pick their nails and I hate it... mostly bc their fingers look sore. :( So I just made a deal with them that if they stop picking their nails when we go to the store next time I will let them each pick out a new nail polish color of their choice... that should be interesting... I know a while ago Brooke said she wanted PURPLE ~ no surprise, it's her FAVORITE color... and I think Lauren wanted TEAL... which is her FAVORITE color and then she was also saying something about getting ORANGE. lol that would be cute... not neon... that would just be annoying. lol So we'll have to see how they do with not picking and then we'll see what colors they pick. :)

Last night Adelle and I were going to go out to Gully's... it's a bar/restaurant/club... really nice place. It's an old barge so it floats in the Hudson River!! very cool!! But after Zumba we were both really lazy and tired and decided we would just rent a movie on tv and hang out at her house. We rented Role Models... it was funny. Not as funny as I thought it would be but good none the less... I also kept dozing off here and there, I felt horrible, but I was beat. We are going to go out another night to Gully's when it's a little bit warmer and when we have MORE energy. lol

so that was that.
I'm off to bathe some kids and get them ready to head over to my parents house.

tootle lou!

and speaking of LOU!! I know I owe you some comments, i'm sorry. i'll be to your blog the first chance I get. :)

running low

2009-04-30T12:09:00.003-04:00

i'm running low on energy these last two days. for some reason I just can't seem to get anything done around the house or to force myself to do anything. it's pretty bad. :( on Tuesday i did pretty good. i cleaned up stuff at my parents house that was mine and i also cleaned up in the camper some, came home and cleaned the truck and the girls and all that... it was a very productive day. I also had 20,659 steps that day! woo-hoo!! it was GREAT.

but yesterday i didn't come close to that, i was under 10,000 and for the life of me can't remember what it was... but whatever. today i have only a little over 3,000 so far. sucky!
but hopefully after I get Trevor from school i will come home with some new energy and get a few things accomplished and add to my steps. for now, i'm going to call Zoe in, feed her and then hang out with the girls for a little while before getting Trevor from school.

all shook up...

2009-04-28T21:06:00.002-04:00

uh uh... yeah yeah!!

I was trying to get on here before to type about my EXCITING pedometer news!! I was so happy to share that I'm almost at 20,000!! woot woot!! BUT then something even more exciting happened...

I was helping Trevor brush his teeth tonight ~ like we normally do and when I brushed the bottom he said his one tooth was hurting him. I checked it out and found nothing. So we moved on to the top teeth and left it alone for a minute. He rinsed out and was still complaining about it hurting him. I felt bad. I asked him if I hurt him with the toothbrush? He said no. I asked him if it was his tooth that hurt or his gum... he said he wasn't sure, but he thought his tooth. I asked him what kind of hurt it was. He said he didn't know just that it hurt him. So we wrapped up brushing, he did his fluoride treatment and then we were in the living room watching the rest of American Idol. Out of no where he brings it up again. He wants me to call the dentist and make him an appointment, only he wants me to call RIGHT that moment. I explain to him that they aren't open but we can call in the morning. I look at his tooth again, try wiggling it to see if it's loose or not, and nothing. I feel horrible. I don't wan my little guy to have a tooth ache or a pain in his mouth at all. :( His dad offers to check it out... and he tries to see if it's loose and sure enough... IT IS!!!

Not sure what to believe I have Trevor come next to me again and I try once more to see if it's loose... and sure enough IT IS!! :)

My boy checks it for himself and guess what he discovers... IT'S LOOSE!! yay!! Trevor's first loose tooth!! woot woot!! Then I explained to him that what he was feeling probably wasn't really pain, but a little discomfort and that it was something he hadn't felt before, so he maybe thought it was pain, but that it's something normal and he will be okay. If he wants to mess with the tooth and wiggle it here and there that is okay, but he must make sure he washes his hands before and after... and that he really shouldn't play with it in school. I also told him he could just leave it and it will get more loose on it's own and eventually fall out.

With all the NEW information and NEWS my boy got so excited he jumped on the couch on my lap and started HUGGING me like crazy... he was smiling from ear to ear, and couldn't contain his excitement and happiness! :) Which quickly spread to his dad and me!! How could you not smile and be so excited for a boy and his FIRST LOOSE TOOTH!! :) yay!!

So at FIVE years and SEVEN months (tomorrow) Trevor has his Very FIRST LOOSE TOOTH!!

woo!! celebrating going on here!!

:)

** the funny part is that just a few weeks ago Trevor and I were talking about loose teeth and all that... and he was saying how everyone in his class has lost some of their teeth and he hadn't. I told him how it's best to keep them for as long as you can bc then you will take better care of your adult teeth bc you'll be a little older and also have more practice brushing. :) I also told him that most of the kids in his class are older than him. Like his friend Kate, she just turned six. He is one of the youngest bc his birthday is in Sept. He will still be five when he starts first grade... but anyway... I was kind of wondering when he would start to loose teeth... and to be honest, I wish it was so soon. :( Part of me wants to hang on to anything baby and "young" about him for as long as I can... and the other part of me, the dental assistant part of me, wants to have a little longer with baby teeth till his is a really good brusher! lol But every day we are working on that and we are getting better and better. :)

I'm happy he is happy. I'm sad that my baby isn't really a baby any more. :(

xoxoxo

2009-04-28T15:47:00.003-04:00

cleaned the truck.
cleaned the girls.
cleaned myself.
picked up Trevor.
went to the PO.
came home.
blogged!

:) not too shabby. lol

the kids are outside riding their bikes and scooters. I can see them out the window as I type this. they are all doing good and getting along... for this minute. for some reason Lauren has been pretty fresh and naughty lately and I'm not sure what is going on with her... she is usually my best behaved... for the most part. This is extremely out of character for her... and the worst part of all is that she seems pretty proud of being naughty. I'm not sure how to discipline her bc, honestly I haven't ever really needed to. Only once in a while for minor things, I scold her and she understands what I mean and she is done being naughty. as of late though, talking, scolding, time outs, taking away things, being upset, sad whatever nothing works. She is very defiant and pretty happy to be that way.

I'm wondering if maybe it's the allergy meds. Maybe they are altering my sweet baby girls personality. :( bummer. i'll have to see how the rest of the week goes... but as for today and yesterday it isn't off to a good start.

Trevor on the other hand, was absent yesterday because of his appt with the specialist... so today was his first day back... he also missed Friday last week bc of stomach issues and I took the girls to the drs. but anyway... today was his first day back, and he did GREAT. His teacher had said he seems to have a hard time following directions as far as behaving himself... mostly he is fooling around with other kids in the class and doesn't always stop when asked... and sometimes has to be asked several times and then reminded again even after he stops. Bryan thinks it's just boys and that he is maybe bored in the class... I some what agree, or actually I fully agree, but still expect him to behave. Bored or not, boy or not, I want him to be good and listen... He is doing EXCELLENT academically so that is good, so maybe he is just bored.
Today when I talked to the assistant teacher of his class, she said that he is doing great. And that honestly she doesn't have a problem with him ever, he is just a boy and maybe because she has boys at home close to the same age as Trevor, she knows how to deal with it better or understands it better, but she said he is fine. Today she had to talk to him twice, only because when she asked a student a question if they hesitated or didn't know the answer, Trevor would tell them... or call it out. She said it was only that he got it a lot faster then the rest of the class and so he was antsy to wait for them to say it. Also since he knows it and they don't know it, he wants to help them out and give them the answer, he doesn't understand that by giving them the answer he isn't really helping them out... he thinks it's actually a big help to them. :) so really is only trying to be nice. :)

well Brooke hurt her finger and is running cold water on it to make it feel better, and Lauren needs a bandaid on her knee, so I guess I should go take care of them, and also check on Trevor... who just came in... great minds think alike!! :)

well i'm off to tend to my babies.
xoxoxo

it's great it's great it's...

2009-04-28T12:20:00.003-04:00

really 88!!! today the sun is shining again, and it's 88 degrees out. we went to my parents house after taking Trevor to school and hung out there some. i cleaned up some of my stampin' up mess i had and the girls played outside. they were doing good in the sandbox and having fun on the swings... but something came over them and something just MADE them to throw rocks into my parents pool! UGH!! Trevor has done this too... they throw rocks in the lake so i guess they just don't understand the difference. i tried to get some out, but didn't want to ruin the liner, so i just gave it up... someone will have to get in the pool and fish them out.
the girls called my dad to tell him they were sorry ~ they said, hi Grandpa. we were bad. we threw rocks in your pool. we're sorry, but we did it on purpose. my dad was okay with it. he didn't even remember Trevor doing it last year or the year before whenever he did it... oh well. kids will be kids. i told them they can't swim in the pool now. they were sad and said they won't do it again.

well anyway.. we are home and i want to clean the truck out and do some more laundry... and then before i know it, it'll be time to pick up Mr. Trevor from school... plus Lauren is annoying the crap out of me bc she won't stay outside and play she has to be a complete pain in my butt and wants to watch tv... of course if i wanted them in they would want to or HAVE to be out and when i want them OUT someone always has to give me a hard time and want or HAVE to be in... UGH!! will i ever win the battle???

rhetorical question, please don't answer. i know i won't. :(

i'm off to detail our FILTHY truck.

xoxo

I made it...

2009-04-27T22:02:00.001-04:00

I made it!!

I made it through all the A's on my list of blogs and tomorrow I will pick up with the B's and con't on down my list. :) I'd love to check in on ALL of you tonight but I'm beat and the dryer finally stopped so I MUST take care of the laundry get the other load out of the wash and into dry. I have NO clothes line... and it doesn't seem as if I'm going to get one either. :( oh poop!! We'll have to see.

I'm tired and I'm off to fold laundry, take a shower and hit the sack!!

have a good night!!

xoxoxo

checking in...

2009-04-27T21:16:00.002-04:00

hey again.

so we are home.
the kiddies are in bed.
and already asleep. they are passing out these days from all the FRESH AIR and sunshine!!
and probably from all the exercise of playing and SWATTING BUGS!! lol
we got our camper from Bryan's father's house.
it's good. :) some of the stuff is all over the place like someone drove it like a bat outta hell, but we won't discuss that... since it wasn't Bryan. :S (anyway!)
Bryan left the camper, the kids and myself at my parents house for us to have dinner with my mom and Matthew (my nephew). He went home to work on the tree fort and also ride his bike some more, he has a road test on Wednesday at 9 AM. He isn't nervous so that is good. :)
We had spaghetti and meatballs with garlic bread and once again I OVER ATE!! :( I'm not happy about this. I have done this ALL weekend long. BUT I guess tomorrow is another day and I will just do better. I have to get my butt in gear, on Thursday or Friday I want to weigh myself and I better have lost at least 1/2 a pound. which is going to be tough with all the eating i'm doing lately. I have to learn to rein myself in bc this SUMMER will be filled with BBQ's and lots of good salads and foods that I shouldn't be eating and especially shouldn't be having seconds (or thirds... shhhhh I know I know, but they were soooo good!!) and by "salads" i don't mean the green leafy kind... I mean the potato, mayo, noodle and good stuff kind. lol

Well anyway... tomorrow I will be right back on track and we'll see how it goes. I have almost 10K on my pedometer right now and I'm not done with some cleaning and laundry yet tonight so we shall see where that takes us... this weekend I was hit and miss with the pedometer... I got pretty good count on Sat. on Friday I sucked!!! :( and on Sunday I didn't do good at all either. Poopy!
I need to get my numbers up... I'm letting myself down with my goal. :(
Well that's about it for now... I'm off to take care of more laundry and maybe straighten up the playroom some while the kiddos are sleeping already.

peace!

life is GOOD! :)

2009-04-27T15:16:00.002-04:00

hey there blog-o-sphere! :)

i haven't been around in a while, and i know my girl Jenn was checking on me... thanks girl!! :) but we are doing good. :) we are having some really nice HOTT weather here... it was in the high 80's all weekend and today too! we are LOVING it!! :) we totally skipped Spring and are heading straight for S U M M E R!! i don't mind. :)

we had a birthday party on Saturday... it was very nice and the kids had a GREAT time!! and we had a dinner invite after that at a friends house... it was GORGEOUS out! bry took his bike and the boys went riding while the girls and kids made some dinner and then we all hung out, the boys took another ride and then we had a fire and some marshmellows... it was PERFECT! the kids were slightly cranky at the end of the night but who could blame them, it was a long day. and they were excellent all day! :) i was a super proud momma!!

then on Sunday we hung out, i actually went and worked some ~ which is nice to get out of the house and do... then i came home to scoop up my little kiddies ~ who were building a TREE FORT with their daddy and were EXTREMELY happy, and DIRTY! lol it was great though. they were all out there having a GREAT time all dirty and playing so nicely together! I hated to have to clean em' up... but we were off to a family bbq! Everyone washed up and off we went... where we had more good food, good friends and a GOOD TIME!! :) My Dad's birthday was last weekend... and the kids and I saw him on Friday night for it, hung out and had a good time then Saturday we called and said our "happy birthday's" and all that... and my parents stopped by and we all went for a walk and everything... it was nice... but my mom made an official birthday bbq for him yesterday... it was nice. :) The bugs were swarming us, but they didn't seem to really bite, they were just an annoyance. lol

so that was our weekend, then today we got up bright and early and left the house at around 7:50 AM or so to head to the GI specialist for Trevor's tummy, which has been doing pretty good... we have had about a month of no vomiting. :) yay for us!! and super yay for Trev! :) He had an upset belly on Friday and stayed home from school, but he ended up doing okay... he had some bathroom trips but no vomiting... I was happy and Saturday he was fine. thankfully!

So the doctor today is a little nuts, and wants a lot done, but i'm glad we are finally going to get some answers, i just have to call the hospital and find out when we can do all these tests and if the insurance will cover it... if the insurance won't cover it then we will fight them on it or try another route, but we'll see. I'm hoping they will be as good as they usually are and cover it all. I mean they covered a breathing machine for Brooke and they cover multiple appointments to the dermatologist for Lauren when we were going through all that... and all the lab fees and creams for her... so I hope this will work out for us. we'll see.

She wants to do an x-ray, ultra sound, blood work, stool test, urine test and I think there might be one more thing. she also told us some foods/drinks to add to his diet and also some breathing techniques to get him to try. when we go back to her office she will do some test there, and also a milk allergy test... so we'll see.
she wants to test him for Lyme disease and lactose intolerance, and a few other things... so far we aren't ruling anything out but we aren't panicking ourselves either.
She wrote him some scripts for meds, but we aren't messing with them, they have some severe side effects and i just rather not do that to him. muscle spasms are one of them, and they are pretty strong and are of the face, neck and upper body extremities ~ and can also affect his vocal cords ~ nothing that will be permanent but i don't want him to have to experience that. so we'll just play it by ear with the meds.

he is on Benadryle for his allergies, like the girls too, and the dr said that might help with his stomach too bc it slows down the digestive tract some... so thats nice that the meds he is already on will help with other problems he has... that makes me happy bc i hate giving my kids meds.

well anyway... that was that. then we went to the pharmacy got our scripts filled ~ went to Crystal Run and checked out a few things there and then headed to the pre-school to drop off copies of the girls ss cards and also proof of address for us... then we meet daddy and Adelle for lunch and then home again home again jiggity jig. the kids played outside, were it is 88 degrees today and then came in kind of cranky and just beat... so I gave them their allergy meds and sent them all for a rest.

when Bryan gets home we will go pick up our camper from his dad's house and take it my parents house and then having dinner with my mom and my nephew and then home again home again jiggity jig. and off to school tomorrow for Trevor and the girls and I will maybe clean our camper... I'm sure it needs some work... we kind of just left it last year bc it was the same time we were moving and things were slightly crazy. lol

well anyway... i'm off to take care of more laundry and while I mention laundry I have to mention how much I really MISS having a clothes line and how much i'm going to beg and bother bryan to make me one here! I NEED ONE!! I have to have it!! I love the way laundry smells after being dried outside and how nice it folds and all that... I just love it AND it is also a better work out for me to hang laundry rather than put it in the dryer. lol

well anyway... I'm off ... peace!

rainy

2009-04-21T13:23:00.002-04:00

it's rainy out. well not that it's really raining, but it could at any moment, and it has been sprinkling on and off all day.

today I went to the pre-school Lauren and Brooke will go to in the Fall and got all the paper work to fill out. I have it filled out, I'm gathering all the stuff I need copies of and taking it to my parents house tonight so my dad can make me copies. then tomorrow I'm going to pick up their shot records from their doctors office, and then take them and all the copies to the pre-school and hopefully they will be officially signed up/registered for pre-school. :) yay.

they will got to pre-school from 9 AM to 3 PM kind of a long day to start out, but that's what Trevor did and he was okay with it... although to be perfectly honest, he didn't go every day... and really there was only one week that he went for five days in a row. So we'll see how it goes with the girls and what I end up doing while they are in pre-school... I have some plans up my sleeve but am not saying what they are just yet... once I work some things out I will let you know what they are.

Also Trevor will be going to a new school in the Fall. I feel bad about this bc I didn't want him to have to change schools once he was there and made some friends and all, but he is good with it so I guess that is all that should matter. We talk about it every now and then and he seems fine to go to a new school and make new friends. I hope it works that smoothly for us. He is a great kid and really smart and well adjusted so I think he will make lots of friends and do fine. :)

The girls can ride the bus once they are four years old, which is only one month after school starts they turn four, so that will be kind of nice... some days they can take the bus and other days I can drive them... they will be picked up around 8 am and then dropped off around 4 pm makes it a LOT longer day for them, but I will most likely pick them up every day... just like I do with Trevor now. But we'll see.

When we went to get the paper work today for the pre-school both girls were really excited. They want to go to pre-school very badly. Lauren is a little more excited then Brooke, but both love to talk about when they go to pre-school and all the things that go along with it... like what they will take for lunch and what they will learn and how many friends they will make and all that... so it's a good thing. But when we went today... they were both excited all the way in the door... and happy happy happy!! Lauren even told the girl that helped us her name, Brooke was a little more shy and clingy to me... but did okay. Once we got the paper work I asked if we could see the classrooms, and they said sure... so up the stairs we went ~ we got to visit two classrooms ~ as soon as we started for the classrooms Brooke needed me to pick her up... which I did... no sense in making her upset/nervous while we are just visiting... Lauren was looking inside the class and when the kids said hi and bye to her she said it back. :) Lauren is a lot quieter and more easy going than Brooke and even more than Trevor, so I thought it would be hardest for her to go to pre-school away from Mommy, but she is ready. She is confident and happy about going. Brooke on the other hand is not going to be so easy to go. :( When we were leaving the pre-school building today I told them that they were both really good girls and thanked them for being on their best behavior ~ I said it must be bc you are both big girls ready to go to pre-school that you were so good. :) Aren't you excited to go to pre-school in the Fall?? Lauren said she was ready. Brooke said she was too little to go to pre-school. She isn't a big girl yet. :(

Well I guess time will tell how it will go with them and school. I'm also opting to have them in separate classes because next year in kindergarten they will be separated. In NY you have no choice in your multiple children being in a class together or not... they are automatically in two ~ or more ~ classes. So I figure why start them off together and make it harder next year... we'll start fresh with them being in two diff classes... it will be better in the long run. :)

i'm off to do a few things before getting my boy from school...

New pics...

2009-04-20T14:05:00.001-04:00

I just posted a bunch of posts with new pictures on my picture blog... if any of you are interested in checking them out... I know I haven't posted there in a while... or here for that matter... but they are there, and hopefully later I can add some more... we'll see. I have a million and twenty six pictures in my computer that I need to do stuff with... some of them I need to post to my blog and some I need to store at Shutterfly and others I need to delete or print or something... well a LOT of them I need to print, but just have to come up with the money for it... we'll see. Last time I ordered pics it was over $80 ~ I did get a ton of them but this time I probably have 4 times the amount... and for those of you that are bad with math *like me lol ~ that would me that I have about $320 worth of pics to print...

I'm off to get T-bone from school... I'll be back...

clever title not available

2009-04-20T13:10:00.002-04:00

I'm sitting here, it's cold and raining out... well almost snowing... I'm not sure what to say it's doing out b/c it's not sure what it's doing out itself. lol

Anyway... I have been doing okay with my steps... I didn't make 20,000 the other day, and I could have tried harder, but I did okay, I was happy with my number from Saturday. Actually I did pretty good Thurs. Friday and Sat. Sunday I dipped down some, but it was still okay.

Thurs ~ 16th ~ 15,517
Fri ~ (missed Zumba) ~ 17th ~ 14,388
Sat ~ DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!! ~ 18th 17,770
Sun ~ 19th ~ 9,983 ~ could have done better!

So today I'm not sure what my number is... I wasn't going to look till later, but I think I'll look now, post it and go do part of the Zumba routine and see what I boost my numbers to then... darn... I'm only at 2718 ~ that isn't very good. ~ But I know I'm having a lazy-do-nothing kind of day... so I need to step this up... no pun intended, well okay maybe.

Also, last night Bryan and I went to a comedy show with some friends for our friend Jillian's birthday... it was a good time. There were three comedians there, not including the people at our table... hardy har har! We laughed a LOT ~ which I guess is the point of going to a comedy show. :) Thankfully my parents could babysit for us ~ because at the last minute Bryan's mom backed out... her husband called and said she had to work late and a bunch of other mumbo jumbo crap... whatever.

When we got home from the comedy show, Bryan took his shirt off and was in the kitchen, and I saw something on his back... I thought he had a big scab or something... it was a dark spot... so I look closer and it's a tick... burrowed right into his back... UGH!! I hate ticks, they are the one thing that totally FREAKS me out!! Like seriously makes my stomach flip and I can't stand them... but anyway... I tried to get it out of him... it was a tough little booger and I only got part of it... his back was really irritated and swollen up some... so this morning he went to Urgent Care and they cut the rest out and said there was only a small amount of the tick in him still... they put some antibiotic cream on and a bandaid and sent him on his way... they said there is almost no chance of him having Lyme diseases... and he didn't ask about lemon disease... whatever he's a guy and doesn't always think of all the questions to ask. LOL I know I'm a dork... it's okay, I'm good with it. So that is that. I hope that he is okay.

AND it is now officially SNOWING here!! WTF??

I'm off to step step step... and get my butt moving some!! We'll see what numbers I report back with later.
I've already lost 8lbs, I just need to loose another 18 or so...

xoxoxo

I've got it...

2009-04-18T09:03:00.003-04:00

I've got the cleaning bug. It started late last night... I got home from my parents house... where we had pizza for dinner and then a nice camp fire and roasted marshmallows and were completely entertained by the kids and then we came inside and had some ice cream sundae's for my Dad's birthday... which is today!!

Happy Birthday Dad!! (even though he doesn't read this... my mom does!) :)

Anyway, we got home last night after nine, and I just started... I cleaned the girls entire room before putting a sleeping baby girl Brooke to bed, and then carrying a very sleepy, but fighting every second of her eyes closing baby girl Lauren to bed. I then cleaned in the living room, moved toys, folded laundry, started laundry in the wash and dryer, and then moved into the kitchen... I got a lot done before taking a shower and heading off to bed, I felt great. I could have kept going but it was getting late, and I knew that any noise I made upstairs, like vacuuming and such would keep Bryan awake downstairs. lol So I went to bed. I got up this morning and I'm at it again. It feels GREAT!! I have been needing and wanting to get stuff done around here and just haven't felt like doing it... so thankfully on my own good time and will I'm doing it!! :)

Well I'm off to do more... I'm also trying to beat my steps for yesterday... they were 14817 I want to reach over 20,000 today... or at least 20,000 but I'm not sure that will happen, that's a LOT of steps... that would be 10 +/- miles for me today if I could do that... and I'd like to... so we'll see. :0)

have a sun shiny day!!

2 posts in 1 week...

2009-04-16T17:48:00.002-04:00

oh man. what in the world is happening?? lol
anyway... Missy gave me a really cute flip-flop key chain that is ORANGE!! and also is a mirror on the back... I love it. :)

I'm sitting here by the computer hoping to gain some motivation and or ambition to do some house work. I have done NO house work at my own home today! It's a mess. A HUGE mess! I'm tired and COLD! It's 62 degrees out today... and that my friends, is VERY warm for here in NY... where we have been having weather temps in the 40's and sometimes 50's. Yes, we are loosers. lol

I'm not sure why I'm so tired and cold and have ZERO energy and ambition to do anything, but that's how it has been for the last few days. :( Maybe I'm just blah. maybe I'm getting sick. I hope not. :(

Bryan is out on his ROAD BIKE!! I have to post pics of it on here... this bike we actually took some pictures of... for some reason the first road bike he had we never took any pictures of... it's like it was all just a dream~ well at least for him. For me, I worry. I worry a little bit about how he drives, and if he fools around and tries to be a show off ~ but I mostly worry about other drivers on the road... in cars, trucks, SUV's, big rigs, all those things. People don't know how to give someone on a bike some extra room, and they just drive like jerks around here anyway... but I just have to hope and pray he stays safe and has a good time while doing it.

I guess I have done a fair job of procrastinating and I NEED to get up and do something... so I'm off to take care of some laundry and pick up 5 things in each room in our house... then go back around again and pick up 5 more things... so on and so forth. We'll see how I make out.

xoxoxo's

Missy ROCKS!!

2009-04-15T15:43:00.001-04:00

I got the nicest surprise today from Missy! :)

Thanks girl!! You totally made my day!! I was being bummy and sort of having a headache and for no good reason at all. I stopped at the post office this afternoon after getting my boy from schoool and got your package! It totally brightened up my entire day and mood! I also really LOVED your note to me!!

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

love always!!
Jenn

small update

2009-04-02T09:26:00.002-04:00

Trevor has been doing okay. He hasn't been sick again since our last visit to the (worthless) doctors. We have been keeping a food diary of all he eats and drinks. We have also been giving him the medicine twice a day. I have another appointment for him tomorrow afternoon and we will see what they have to say then... this time Bryan is going with us too, so we will most likely get some better answers and or a referral to the specialist. ~ Bryan doesn't care, at all, about being rude and demanding what he wants... which is a good thing in this case!

The girls are doing good too. They are loving being able to be outside, as well as Trevor and Zoe. Bryan put up the trampoline so that made them all happy. They both have coughs, which has made them both have some rough nights sleeping but I think we are almost over all that now too.

Monday, I was sick as hell. I couldn't believe it. I felt awful! Thankfully it only lasted on Monday and once I let myself vomit I felt much better, of course it was all the way at the end of the day... but oh well... I'm a big baby... I hate throwing up.

Bryan got a HOT road bike!! I have some pics... actually I have LOTS of pics... good times I tell ya... and I want to post them, I just have to find some time to do so... I have been trying to work on the house... we are PURGING!! time to recycle ~ reuse and most of all REDUCE! I have things bagged up to give away to friends and family and then there is just some plain ol' junk that needs to be tossed... our house is way too over whelmed with crap...

Anyway.... if I reach some goals today then I will post some pics... which is also one of my goals, but I have ones higher up on my list that I NEED to accomplish! So we'll see...

I also have some fitness updates ... I'll post them at my unbelievable blog for those interested...
(Jenn & Missy!)

ttfn

WTF??

2009-03-25T19:45:00.002-04:00

we went to the peds office bc they told me they would do something to help figure out what is going on with Trevor... i called them to see if they would write me a script for a specialist... they said come in and we can do some blood work or whatever and figure out a plan... if need be we'll write you a script for the pediatric gastroenterologist...

what they did...

NOTHING.

skwat!

zip.

zilch.

Nada damn thing!!

they gave him a script for Zantac and want a food log for two weeks... it's complete and utter BS.
the dr didn't talk to Trevor at all. did ask him one single question. did touch him, check him or do anything besides stand there pissing me off! what a jerk. he asked me some questions and whatever answer i gave him him totally blew me off... i made the appt for two weeks and made a journal for them to fill out in school... BUT i'm going to call tomorrow and see if they will just write me a script... enough is enough.
honestly i don't want something to be wrong with my son, but i want something to be right. i don't want him to be throwing up and feeling shitty all the time. i don't want him to wake up screaming for us at 4 in the morning bc he has vomited all over again. i'm sick of him being sick. i want him to feel good. i wanted him to be outside today, when it finally got warm out and play with his sisters, i don't want him laying in the house complaining of stomach pains and feeling like he is going to vomit again.
the dr told me they can't do blood work bc they aren't sure what they would be looking for. they can't do an ultra sound bc they aren't sure what they would be looking for... they can't do anything bc they are effing morons ~ at least that is pretty much how it looks to me. the fact that he didn't' talk to Trevor, ask him any questions, touch his stomach ask him where it hurts or anything really PISSED me off too! the dr also said that since he wasn't presenting symptoms at the time it was hard to figure things out... although he was acting better at the time of his appt he was vomiting THIS morning and having stomach pains all day, even while at the drs office. I feel like they totally disregarded anything and all that i said to them, like they don't believe me or don't give a shit... and honestly i could give a fuck less about me and what they think about me, but i just want my kid to be better.
next i'm going in with the heavy artillery... DADDY! Bryan is fed up with these drs and their bullshit... he is way past done and so sick of seeing his little boy suffering... as we all are. so i think they are getting a phone call for a script/referral to the specialist from me, and if they don't deliver or won't do it... then i will just send in the BIG GUY! no more messing around. enough is enough... and we are past enough.

i'm off to go snuggle with my boy and rub his hurting tummy for him... i hope he gets some sleep tonight he really wants to go to school tomorrow... we'll see though.

and the whole school situation is another story for another time... such drama and bullshit in my life lately... when will it end??

seriously!

not again

2009-03-25T08:29:00.002-04:00

Trevor was up again at 4 AM, crying and calling for Bryan and I because he threw up again. He was also sick all day Saturday throwing up. And he was sick the week before on Wednesday all day being sick. It breaks my heart that he is just always sick. I don't believe that it's nothing, or a viral thing... I want answers. Today we are seeing someone that will help get us those answers, come hell or high water. I don't care where I have to go, who I have to knock down on my way or what I have to pay... we are getting answers!

I'm off to call the insurance company and also make some phone calls to his regular pediatrician and also the specialist...

First Day Of Spring...

2009-03-20T13:24:00.002-04:00

Hi ya'll... sorry I have been seriously MIA... but there has been a LOT of chaos, drama, bullshit, lying, day time soap opera kind of shit going on around here... you would NOT believe what has been happening in these parts of the woods... NOT FUN!

Oh well... in light of it being the FIRST DAY OF SPRING and the sun shining bright, although it is cold as heck here *but shhhhh don't tell, b/c from inside you can't tell it is cold out... but b/c it is that time of year to do some Spring Cleaning, I'm starting with my life... although my house does need it too... but I'm cleaning up my act, my life, my drama-filled bs, and all that... so I'm making my blog private...

I would LOVE for you all to follow if you'd like... you can email me at jbrown31 (at) hvc (dot) rr (dot) com and I will gladly add you to my list... please just put in the subject line... add to blog or something so I will know what it's for and not just delete the email b/c I don't recognize the name. :)

I'm off to do some errands and all that fun stuff... Happy Friday and Happy FIRST DAY OF SPRING!!

what you get

2009-03-04T19:04:00.003-05:00

What you get when you mix all the stuff in the below post together is...

a throat infection
an ear infection
and a stomach virus

Lauren
Brooke
Trevor

Lauren and Brooke are on antibiotics for the throat and ear infections and Trevor just has to try to stay hydrated while having diarrhea and vomiting. He has kept NOTHING down. Ugh!

I just hope and pray that they are all healthy and stay healthy SOON!

Lauren is sleeping on the couch and Brooke and Trevor are probably fighting... being sick hasn't helped them to leave one another alone... it's making me NUTS!!

Thank you all for your well wishes, I hope they kick in soon!! :)

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-03-04T09:12:00.002-05:00

What do you get when you add these together...

1 stressed out mommy
NO sleep at night
one daughter that is still running high fevers
one daughter that refuses to eat food
one daughter that is still coughing so much she vomits
one daughter that is SILLY and happy but coughing
one son that is vomiting
one son that is coughing
one son that is really CRANKY
one husband that is FAR FAR away for work
one doctors appointment for THREE kids
one doctors appointment in the LATE afternoon
one son home from school AGAIN
one doctors office that doesn't answer the phone due to a HIGH VOLUME OF CALLS... ugh!
one house that is a WRECK
one mommy that constantly has a headache
one family vehicle

huh? huh? what do you get??

I'm not sure either. this isn't a riddle... this is our house and family.
Trevor woke up saying his stomach hurt... I thought he just wanted to stay home, but low and behold he puked before we left to take Bryan to work. Then he also vomited on the way home... partially in the truck and partially on the side of the road. Poor lil' man. I feel so bad that he is sick AGAIN and also that I doubted him this morning that he was sick and just wanting to stay home.
Lauren is still having FEVERS... and they aren't little ones either, they are about 102... NOT GOOD! She says nothing hurts her, but she refuses to eat any real food, and she pretty much just lays on the couch all day long... she also has been coughing like CRAZY and sometimes vomits from that. OH and she keeps saying her eye hurts, so she wants a cold wash cloth to wipe it all the time... but we see nothing wrong with it... I feel so bad for her.
Brooke seems to be doing the BEST... she is back to her silly and happy little self... no fevers, no vomiting, although she does have a really hacky cough she is doing good. I'm wondering what the doctor will say about her ear drum today... he was concerned the last time we were there (last week) that she may need to see an ENT specialist... b/c it seems that her right ear drum is hardening... not sure what that means or what it is doing to her ear or hearing, but I'm anxious to find out what it looks like now that she isn't having a full on cold with sinus pressure... I'm keeping my fingers crossed that all is good. She has ONLY ever had ONE ear infection and that was this past time when she had the pneumonia... so I'm hoping it's okay. That was the ear though that was "bulging" from the infection... I'm nervous. I hope she is okay.

Well I'm off to take care of the sickly... and try to move our doctors appointment to earlier today since Trevor is home already. I'm washing pukey clothes now and as soon as his coat is dry we will be ready to rock and roll.

PS I am loosing my shit here people and I'm sorry I haven't been around to visit anyone or leave comments, I feel like I'm drowning most days, and not sure when this feeling will GO AWAY. i'm hoping that as soon as I'm able to get my kids healthy again I'll be better. BUT thank you so much for all your love and support and your comments... they mean so much to me. mwah!

Wait! What is today??

2009-03-03T14:03:00.002-05:00

i'm so lost and have fallen behind, I may never catch up. i have NOT gotten a full nights rest in, I can't tell ya how long... i'm beat. i'm so tired it hurts my eyes to sit here and try to type this... thankfully after i do type this i'm going to have a HOT cup of blueberry coffee and SUGAR and put my feet up for a few minutes.

i took a shower, thinking, well hoping it would wake me up... but it did just the opposite... it made me even more relaxed and sleepy. although i can't say i'm really relaxed... i'm not. i'm stressed, as usual. but this time it is all me... i have a lot on my plate right now and i just need to start choking some of it down before adding more, but what do i keep doing?? yep. adding more. i am on my fifth helping and having even touched my first serving on my plate...

well enough of the whine... i have to get going so i do have a few minutes to put my feet up and close my eyes before i have to go get Trevor from school...

maybe i shouldn't close my eyes... yeah probably not a good idea...

Finally Friday...

2009-02-27T10:59:00.002-05:00

it's finally Friday and I have had one interesting week... full of lots of stuff and running around... and today is NO different...

It started off with our well pump taking a poop... then we got that fixed and then there was a valve that had to be fixed in order for our pump to shut off and not continuously run and make our electric bill out of sight...

Then Trevor and Brooke started getting sick... and got sicker and then went to the doctors... it's viral, and they are doing okay... as long as I keep them on Motrin or Tylenol... and the fever doesn't spike they are good...

Then Lauren woke up this morning, after coughing her brains out all night long and threw up all over the couch, where I just happened to be sleeping...

And... I was sleeping on the couch because last night, well four this morning actually Trevor came in our room saying he had a bad dream and couldn't sleep... he was also burning up and coughing non stop... so I got him some Motrin and a drink of water... thankfully that helped with the fever and the water helped with the coughing... he was good to go. Since I can't sleep in a bed with both Bryan and Trevor (Trevor is a complete BED HOG) I went to lay on the couch... I have NOT slept well at all this week... I was beat.

Of course I lay down and because I really really REALLY want to fall asleep and get rest that I really need... I cannot fall asleep... I lay there with my eyes closed... thinking and thinking and thinking some more... my mind is flooded with thought after thought... it is unreal... I'm so annoyed with everything and myself... I just want to go to sleep... since I think that I'm trying too hard to fall asleep and that is what is happening... I then just try to think about happy thoughts... and it worked... because last thing I knew... I was thinking about our vacation and then I hear Lauren saying "Mommy" as she vomited this morning...

So thank goodness it is finally Friday... it took all week to get here!!

I have a lot to do today... cleaning, cooking, making a cake, grocery shopping, going to the post office, and going to Zumba... I cannot wait... it will feel really good to get all these things checked off my to do list all in one day... but I better get started or it won't happen.

peace out girlscout!

Trevor & Brooke ~

2009-02-26T11:18:00.001-05:00

Trevor and Brooke went to the doctors today to see what was going on with them... they tested them for strep and flu and tested Brooke for RSV and all came back negative... so that means that what they have... the fevers, chills, coughing, running nose, diarrhea and vomiting is all just viral... the diarrhea and vomiting only happened one time each and was different kids... so they aren't too concerned about dehydration or anything, so that is good.

Plenty of rest, fluids and Tylenol and Motrin for the fevers. We go back in one week to do a follow up and just check on them...

I'm beat, I didn't get any sleep last night, so I'm going to go make some lunch for the kiddos, then after lunch we are all going to take a nap... yay.

Oh no!

2009-02-25T20:12:00.003-05:00

Brooke is running a temp of 100.3... I hope this doesn't end up like last time she was running a temp... pneumonia...

she has been coughing like crazy, it is a dry non-stop cough. we did a breathing treatment and did nothing to help her ~ i hope that something helps her soon. it will be a long night for her if she can't catch a break from coughing... poor baby girl.

i just made doctors appointments for Trevor and Brooke tomorrow... I felt like I really should take them both since they are coughing and have temps, I don't want it to get as out of control as last time with Brooke...

I'll try to post tomorrow morning about how our night went... I have a feeling I'll be up a lot with them... and I'll be around to post about how the doctors appointments went.

Keep your fingers crossed... thanks

ugh!

2009-02-25T18:58:00.002-05:00

so we got the water pump fixed... then something was wrong with some valve that was making the pump run continuously... which in turn will make our electric bill out of sight. thankfully my dad works for a plumbing and heating supply company and was able to get the part for us and bring it over after dinner and help Bryan get it fixed.

we still have NOT heard from the landlord about who is going to pay for the pump... although that really isn't an issue b/c they are the landlord and we are the tenants and there for they are required by contract and law to pay to fix things like that... so we pretty much just need to know if we should pay the plumbers with our rent checks instead of them paying the plumbers and us paying them rent... still no word. that annoys me. if i was late paying them something or they wanted to be in touch with us for a reason, they would have a big problem with us ignoring them and not being in touch... whatever.

on another note... i had Trevor home from school today, again. he was up in the middle of the night, or early this AM however you want to look at it... and he was complaining of his stomach hurting... thankfully he didn't vomit, but he did cough like crazy, even after cough meds (that I know do NOTHING, but his dad wanted me to give them to him...) and Vick's on his feet... so finally at about 4:30 AM he and I fell asleep on the couch... OH and he had a temp last night... it was 99.5 ~ gave him Motrin and it went down within 15 mins or so.

today Trevor and Brooke both are coughing quite a bit... Brooke a LOT more than Trevor and they both have runny noses, but it is clear... so that is good. BUT they both had fevers today too... Trev's was 99.7 and Brooke's was 100... I worry about a relapse of the pneumonia for Brooke or something like that... ugh. I also worry now about ear infections and such... but they are acting good, running around being wild and not acting sick at all. I gave them both Motrin again today for the fevers and again within 10-15 mins they were cool as cucumbers. :)

i'm sitting here on my butt when I should be doing something... i missed exercise class tonight with Heather and Adelle b/c Bryan is on-call... but we gotta make the money...

we are going on a CRUISE!! yay! things have been so crazy around here i have to remind myself to breath sometimes... but when i have a few more mins i will type all about our plans for our BIG vacay! i cannot wait. i just know it will fly by and i won't want to come home when it's over... or maybe i will... there will be a GREAT gift waiting for me at home...

thankfully~

2009-02-24T13:52:00.003-05:00

thankfully ~ I have water. I still haven't heard from the landlord about the situation, but whatever, it had to be fixed no matter what and it's done! ;) yay!

It's been a Long time... I shouldn't have left you...

2009-02-24T09:21:00.002-05:00

with out a dope beat to step to!! :)

Okay, so really it has been a long time... I should have been here just to say hi and all that... I know that some of you have been worried... sorry.

things are okay. just really busy and kind of stressful... and as we all know i don't deal with stress real well or busy for that matter... I just sort of walk away... although blogging is very relaxing for me and I don't find it stressful at all... I just haven't had time.

things are now clearing up and finally I see the light at the end of the tunnel... thank God. I will be around later to type some more, but for now I'm waiting for the plumbing guys to come fix my pump... well actually change my pump b/c it died. ugh!!

Drift Away

2009-02-18T08:10:00.008-05:00

The Rules for the MEME are:

1. Put your Music Player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag your friends

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

**I Kissed A Girl ~ Katy Perry * don't judge! JK that is pretty funny!

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A BOY?
**BOYS?? didn't you see how I describe myself?? LOL
~Money Ain't A Thang ~ Jay Z * wow. that would be great... if Money Ain't A Thang...
must mean you have quite a bit of it.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
** Standing Outside The Fire ~ Garth Brooks *I'm not sure if this is really how I'm feeling
today, but I do feel this way some times. :)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
** I Do Jay & Jane ~ La Rissa * this is hilarious! and honestly it isn't my life's purpose. ~ Jenn I'm so glad you tagged me, I'm cracking up here with these answers and REALLY needed this today!

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
** Hero ~ Nickleback * I'm not waiting for a Hero to save us... or for love to save me either... this song is pretty despressing if you let it get to you... today I'm not. This isn't my motto, not today!

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
** Fuego ~ Pitbull *LMAO ~ do my friends think, I think I'm a gangster??? this is my kids favorite song! probably b/c of the beat.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
** You Shook Me All Night Long ~ AC/DC * this is really disturbing! Maybe it was meant to be that I kept them up all night wondering where I was when I was in my wild teen years... LATE teen years that is.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
** November Rain ~ Guns N Roses

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
** Hard To Handle ~ Black Crows * This has got to be very true!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
** Neglected ~ Katherine McPhee * this is maybe what I'm doing to my friends lately. I feel really stressed out lately and probably have not been a good friend at all.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
** You Raise Me Up ~ Josh Groban * this could work for part of my life story, thank God, I had/have all those people to raise me up.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
** Stand ~ Rascall Flatts ~ I LOVE this song! And I'd guess I'd love to be able to STAND when I grow up...

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
** One Step At A Time ~ Jordan Sparks * Good advice! For love and for life!

WHAT WILL/DID YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
** Genie In A Bottle ~ Christina Aguilera * LOVE this song! It brings back a LOT of memorie for me, but I didn't dance to it at my wedding. :(

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
** Crazy Train ~ Ozzy * I can ONLY hope this is the song they play!! What a great up beat song and honestly isn't life like riding a CRAZY TRAIN?!!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
** Stay ~ Sugarland * what the song is about isn't my hobby (not this relationship) but maybe my hobby is listening to Sugarland

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
** Electric Avenue ~ Eddy Grant * remember in NYC when people were getting electricuted by stepping on metal grates... well that is ONE of my fears! could you imagine??

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
** Awful Beautiful Life ~ Daryl Worley * I didn't think of the name of my blog all on my own! LOL! I love this song! I also love that this lined up here... I was wondering what I would get!

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
** Just A Dream ~ Carrie Underwood * I'm not sure what this means... I definitely do NOT want to go through what the song is about... I couldn't even imagine... but I do LOVE Carrie Underwood and this song! And it would be nice if I could have my life be a DREAM life now... if you just take the title of the song.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
** Crazy Bitch ~ Buckcherry * I honestly do NOT think of my friends in this manner! HONEST! I do think that some of them are crazy bitches though... but that's okay... b/c I'm sure they think of me the same EXACT way! :)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
** Drift Away ~ Doby Gray * This is ONE of my ALL TIME FAVORITE songs!! I love it! I love the beat, the words, LOVE where it takes me in my mind! LOVE LOVE LOVE it! It was 1963, but I think it was written for me!

All these songs that I used for this are on my blog playlist if you are interested in hearing any of them. And honestly this was fun and pretty interesting! :) I wouldn't have been able to pick the songs for each answer better than how some of them came out on their own. :)

Thanks, Jenn for tagging me, I needed something to free my mind from stress!! This worked perfectly for that! :)

I tag... everyone that wants to play along only b/c I'm too lazy to link people right now, I might come back with some actual tags and links!

HAPPY...

2009-02-13T09:41:00.002-05:00

Happy day before Valentines day!!

I'm super stressed and have a million things that I think I should be doing and could be doing and NEED to get up and do... so here I sit. At the computer finding comfort in typing away and just letting all the thoughts in my head run out of my body through my finger tips and onto the screen.

I need to take a few big BREATHS and get myself together. I have realized that when I have a few things that I need to plan and get done, I just fold and do none of it... although I put it out of my "to do" list, it is still in my mind floating around STRESSING me out to no end. I used to think I was the kind of person that could hand a lot of responsibility and organize things to run smoothly and function in a purposeful manner... I can't.

I'm totally crashing down... I can't figure this out... I can't figure out a way to go, do, see and get done all the things that need to be done and that I want to do... without feeling like I'm going to just fall apart... I need to really make a plan and get things rolling... the sooner that I start to get things together and worked out and get things checked off my perpetual list of things to do... then I will start to feel much better... I hope.

So first things first is that I need to get away from the computer and straighten up my parents house, then I am going to work on some stampin' projects... that I need to do... then I'm going to work on making a list of all the things I need to get going on... and I'm going to get going on them.

Take one step at a time....

Tag... your it... for real this time...

2009-02-12T12:02:00.003-05:00

I was tagged by Jenn from My Beautiful Creations... to do this :

Get a pen and paper.

Here are the rules of this tag:

1. Write down who tagged you.

2. Write your name / username / pseudo

3. Are you right-handed or left-handed?

4. What are your favorite letters to write?

5. What are your least favorite letters to write?

6. Write “The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.”

7. Tag five people.

Tricked ya... tricked ya...

2009-02-11T21:08:00.001-05:00

okay... just kidding... it wasn't meant to be a trick... but the truth is... I'm FREEZING and I'm tired and I'm getting in my jammies and a big warm blanket all curled up on the couch and I'm going to watch a movie and probably fall asleep till Bryan comes home from the call he is on for work... and I'm too lazy and COLD to stay down here by the computer and put the pics on here then load them to a post...

sorry. I promise I'll do it tomorrow. :)

pinky promise

Tricked ya... tricked ya...

2009-02-11T21:08:00.000-05:00

Tag... Your IT!!

2009-02-11T19:22:00.000-05:00

I was tagged today by Jenn from My Kids Are My World ~ I think that was the blog she tagged me from... maybe it was her BEAUTIFUL CREATIONS blog... sorry Jenn, I'm not sure now. lol

I did what I was told to do with being tagged, and have it all ready to go, I just have to wait to upload the pictures on my computer and then put them on here... When the kids go to bed... which is SOON, then I will post it. :)

UGH!

2009-02-11T12:32:00.003-05:00

Blueberry coffee, Slim Jim's, coupons, three NOISY kids, a headache, Motrin, blogging, bad/bitchy mood, messy house, lack of desire to do anything productive, THREE NOISY KIDS, needing chocolate, pictures, tired, headache....

What does this all mean??

P

M

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I'm almost positive!! Or else we are all in trouble.

I'm drinking some great blueberry coffee that my mom got for me...yummo! thanks mom!
I'm having a major headache, so I took some Motrin.
I'm going to cut some coupons, because I find this totally relaxing and need to relax some today because, well because I have...

THREE NOISY KIDS here today. :P I have Lauren, Brooke & Walter. They are being good and playing well together, but they are NOISY!!

I'm in a bitchy/bad mood b/c of a lot of things, but mostly b/c I let myself get into situations b/c I don't say what I think/feel and I'm really annoyed at myself for this... pathetic.

I'm also ~ probably ~ in the bad bitch ass mood b/c I'm pretty sure I'm PMSing... b/c I am having some Slim Jim's with my blueberry coffee... I know totally GROSS!! sorry can't help it... I have also raided the house for any and all chocolate, with NO luck though. SUCKY SUCKY!

My house was looking good, but then I brought home THREE NOISY and obviously MESSY KIDS! SHIT!!

I want to do laundry so I can stay on top of it and not have it MOUND up again and I want to load the dishwasher and run it so it won't need to be done when I have dinner dishes... and apparently I am the ONLY one in my house that knows how to load, run and unload the dishwasher... either I'm a complete GENIUS ~OR~ my husband is an effing IDIOT! You figure it out!

I also need to vacuum... oh well.

I feel like when I get over whelmed with things that I want and or need to do.... instead of doing one thing at a time and slowly getting through it all, I get overwhelmed and start to have a slight anxiety attack and then I do NOTHING... none of it... I totally look the other way and then I usually come to blogland where things are happy and bright and you all love me and can't see my MOUND of laundry, my MESSY playroom, and my carpet that needs to be vacuumed!! :) yay for blog therapy... and the opportunity to PROCRASTINATE while keeping in touch with FRIENDS!! :)

Okay... I'm done here... ONLY b/c I really have to pee... I have had wayyyyyy too much coffee and honestly my hands are starting to shake... too much caffeine and SUGAR... whoa!! lol I might now have the energy to do something else besides just use the bathroom... go me!!

OH ~ and I also posted a bunch of pics on my other blog... yeah... more procrastinating... only that shit is so annoying b/c it takes EIGHTY FIVE years to post a damn picture... what is up with that?? OH well... go check them out!!

2009

2009-02-09T22:50:00.002-05:00

This year isn't starting off too good. We have had some sickness in our family and some other personal issues as well, we have also had Heather's Grandmother in the hospital twice, once with pneumonia and then with siezures, and brain surgery. We have also had Leland in the hospital not feeling well at all. Already we have known 8 people that have needed antibiotics this year.

My brother's wife's uncle passed away. This year just isn't starting off well at all... which means that it can ONLY GET BETTER!!

So far, we have had my two SIL's birthday's one on the 5th and one today... Happy Birthday Jamie... we also have some really important or shall I say milestone dates...

Tomorrow... my God-daughter, Krystina will be 18!!! Holy shit! When did that happen?? I cannot believe it.

On the 14th... yes, Valentines Day, my nephew will be entering into his offical TEEN years... he will be 13!! wow. I still can't believe this... when I look at him sometimes now, I wonder where the little boy went and who is this young man now... but then he smiles or laughs and I know it is him... my little boy. :)

This year I will also be turning the magic number of 30! I cannot believe this more than anything else... I stopped really thinking I aged since I turned about 24... well since I've had kids... I mean I know when my birthday is, and we celebrate it, but for some reason I never pay too much attention to the numbers. 30 is going to be interesting for me... and to be honest, I think slightly difficult. BUT... I can't dwell on it too long... because

this year... my BEST FRIEND Heather will be getting married!! yay!! I cannot wait. They have been together for 10 years, well 11 this coming Fall, I think... or this Summer... but anyway... I am so happy for them... so we have some BIG HUGE milestones this year.

THIS is also the year that my baby girls will... GULP... start pre-school. I have the chills and a lump in my throat just thinking about it. They are my babies. It's hard for me. My big boy will be going into first grade and at a new school too, and I'm already nervous for him. He is my baby too... I think maybe I have a problem with holding on a little too tight... but that's okay... I'm holding on now while they still let me.

I'm off to bed, to catch up on some youth and beauty sleep... I'm going to need as much as I can get... wow.

bored

2009-02-09T14:13:00.001-05:00

I'm bored with my blog lately... but it seems like i don't have much time to do anything fun with it... I want to type more posts and I really really need to add more pictures. I need to get on that... I really need to get on a lot of things...

PRE-SCHOOL at home for the girls ...

Cleaning and organizing my house....

Finishing things around the house...

Helping Heather with wedding stuff...

Bridal Shower plans and ideas...

and a million more things... I need to really organize my time and get a schedule going so I can get to do all these things... I'm not managing my time well at all...

I'm hoping that tonight I can sit down and really work out a schedule or at least an outline of one and start to fill it in piece by piece and after a few weeks fine tune it so that it works great for me to get things accomplished around here.

I'm also thinking, seriously, of an at home business plan... I have a lot of ideas, but not sure how they will all pan out... but I'm thinking it is time that I take some action and at least plan some things and do some research and investigating and see where I end up...

I'm telling you... this sunshine today has me doing all kinds of thinking and really has me MOTIVATED!! Which leads me to believe I truly am solar-powered!! GO GREEN!! :)

Sunny Happy Day!

2009-02-09T12:44:00.004-05:00

The sun is shining bright and warm, and I'm having a pretty good day. I'm tired, but other than that things are good. :)

Brooke & Lauren are upstairs playing with Walter and they are having a blast together. Only a few little squabbles, but they were between the girls. lol I thought about taking them for a walk, but not sure who I'd have to carry back so we are staying put for now.

I'm FINALLY getting caught up on some laundry that has been here for WAY to long! It feels good. I think mostly it is the SUNSHINE that has me feeling so good and wanting to get things done... when I'm done typing this I'm going to up to tackle the playroom. It is a mess and really needs to be straightened up, sorted out, some stuff thrown out and really organized and for some reason today I really feel up to the challenge, even with THREE kids under foot! :)

Also... Heather's grandmother is probably, maybe, possibly coming home tomorrow from the hospital, which is the BEST news! They weren't sure how long she would need to stay after the brain surgery and then also if she would need continued care for a while in a nursing home... thankfully she is doing awesome and, of course, ready to come home! :)

On a SAD note, my friend, Melissa's little boy, Leland, is in the hospital, he has been there since Friday. He got this horrible stomach bug and was vomiting and having diarrhea and was severely dehydrated... they are keeping him one more night... at least. :( I guess he has stopped vomiting but is still having diarrhea, and now has an ear infection. Poor little guy. So please keep him in your thoughts and prayers along with his caring, loving and I'm sure very tired parents. (Melissa has only left to take a quick shower and go back to the hospital, I'm sure she is beat!) :(

Well I'm off... I hear the kiddos getting wild with some monster trucks.... but at least they are happy! :)

update on Heather

2009-02-05T18:48:00.002-05:00

Heather called me earlier to say that her Grandmother was out of surgery and that it went well. They took the breathing tube out and things were going well. She was really groggy but trying to talk some. :)

I haven't heard from her again, but plan on calling her in a little bit to see how it went when they got to talk to/see her. :)

thank you all for your kind words, thoughts and prayers.

xoxox Jenn

601 posts

2009-02-05T12:16:00.003-05:00

This is my 601 st post on this blog.

I can't believe I made it this far.

I'm actually pretty proud of myself for sticking with this

and blogging as often as I have.
I plan on keeping up with this as much as I can,

and I'd really like to get into the habit of blogging

every day. ]

I want this to become more of a collection of

memories and stories of my life and family

than just rantings or random stuff just to fill up space.

My kids are amazing and they are always doing or saying something

so awesome that the world should know it... or at least the blogging world. lol

So anyway to kick off my 601st post

I thought I'd post 61 things about me, my life, and/or my family.

6 wasn't enough and 601 was too many.

so 61 it is. :)

1. I'm from NY, born and raised. I like being a "New Yorker" but I'd like to live some where warmer.

2. I talk to my mom almost every single day, and lately I have been calling my dad every day too. I like this relationship I have with them.

3. I have all girl nieces on Bryan's side of the family. Trevor is the only grandson.

4. I LOVED being pregnant and often times think of being a surrogate

5. My house is a wreck

6. I'm a procrastinator (I use this on most surveys, memes or things about myself!)

7. I want to move again, although we just moved and I like this house, it is becoming way to much work and I just want something that is already finished.

8. I have a few friends that I consider my ABSOLUTE BEST friends.

9. Bryan and I love having company over. A full house is a happy house.

10. I dread the time between inviting people over and when they actually show up. I try to clean like a mad woman and make sure everything is as perfect as it can be.

11. we have mice in our kitchen. they are totally gross. they won't get caught in the traps either. so they must be really smart.

12. on my side of the family I only have sister in laws ~ b/c I only have brothers. lol

13. I would Love to go to school for something but am scared of starting that chapter in my life and unsure of how I could actually do it... physically, mentally and financially.

14. We are almost out of toilet paper.

15. I love to clean with lemon scented Pine-Sol

16. I clean my bathroom almost every. single. day. (sometimes twice a day)

17. my kids get bathed at least 6 days a week, sometimes seven and sometimes 9 or 10 times.

18. I HATE the Winter.

19. I love watching my children have an "ah-ha" moment when they figure something out.

20. Trevor is doing great in school we just got his second report card, and he is AMAZING!

21. Lauren and Brooke cannot wait to start pre-school.

22. I'm so nervous/anxious to see how they will do without me all day at school.

23. I would love to take photography classes just for my own personal photographs

24. I would LOVE to have another HUGE wedding again. Maybe to celebrate an anniversary of ours we will walk down the isle again.

25. We want to go on a cruise... very badly.

26. We want to take the kids to Disney World ~ very badly.

27. Bryan & I both would love to take a cruise to Alaska and vacation there

28. Trevor's favorite colors are green & black

29. Lauren's favorite color is pink

30. Brooke's favorite color is purple

31. Both girls can spell their first names.

32. Both girls can trace their names when I write it for them.

33. Trevor likes to do his homework and hand it in a day earlier than he has to.

34. I used to work in a dental office as an assistant to the doctor and I LOVED it ~ it was my dream job before being a stay at home mom.

35. I'm thinking of doing massage therapy ~ taking a few courses/classes for that.

36. I think, although I talk a LOT, that I'm a really good listener.

37. I want to loose weight. ~ I want to feel good wearing anything I put on.

38. I'm lazy about trying to actually do something towards loosing weight.

39. After Heather & Chris' wedding I will have been in 5 weddings.

40. I would love a new truck... or newer truck.

41. I miss contributing to our family financially.

42. my three kids have been calling me Jenn lately and at first it didn't bother me, but lately it has been driving me NUTS!

43. we love to go camping. it is so much fun.

44. We want to landscape our entire property and make a better/bigger/nicer yard for the kids and entertaining.

45. I hope I NEVER get neighbors.

46. I love to go on walks, as long as it is with someone else to talk to and pass the time with.

47. I haven't worn a bathing suite in 7 1/2 years.

48. I don't own a bathing suite.

49. I love going to the ocean & would love to live on it... or really close to it.

50. sometimes happy memories depress me b/c those times are gone.

51. I want my kids to have the BEST childhood ever.

52. I love to stamp and scrapbook, and I don't do it often enough

53. we need to laugh more often.

54. I have some of the best friends b/c of blogging

55. I'd love to be a nurse, but don't think I could handle school.

56. I also have seriously considered doing party planning and wedding planning as a career,

but where I live isn't a good area for it.

57. I'm much more social than my husband.

58. I almost always look at people's teeth first when meeting them.

59. I'm thinking this list is pretty sucky ~ b/c most of these things aren't very random.

60. I get a knot in my stomach, nearly every single time I hear my children cry when I'm not in the room with them. I always fear/think the worst. :(

61. I'm really fearful of sexual predators with my children, and other children

I know... it is a very strong fear and sometimes wonder what provokes it,

other than the sick effed up people that make me feel this way in this sometimes

crazy world we live in.

So there you have it... totally random stuff about me. No rhyme or reason to any of it, just stuff that came to me as I typed the list. And really probably not interesting at all. Maybe the next list I do I'll try to do x-number of INTERESTING things about me. :P

CHEERS to 601!

Thoughts & Prayers

2009-02-05T09:13:00.002-05:00

Heather's Grandmother is in surgery as I type this. They are all there waiting at the hospital. I can only imagine the thoughts and feelings they are all having. It has been about 2 weeks since her Grandmother went into the hospital and they have been waiting and preparing for surgery.

She is having brain surgery. They are taking three parts of her skull off, in order to remove a brain tumor that is the size of a lime on the front of her brain. There are risks, as with any surgery.

We know the surgery will go fine though, Estelle is a tough cookie and nothing is going to take her down. BUT please pray for the surgery to go well, for them to do all they have to do. Please also pray for a speedy recovery. She is tired of being in the hospital for all this time. I can't blame her either. They aren't sure how soon she will be able to come home after the surgery, it depends on how she is feeling and acting and what kind of therapy she will need. She may be in the hospital for a while longer and/or go to a nursing home for more therapy before returning home. Although the surgery is scary, some of the hardest parts is having her away from home for so long from everyone.

Please pray for Heather, her Grandmother, her Grandfather, her mom, her uncle, her brother and the rest of the family ~ for strength, health, healing and a super recovery.

~Heather I'm always thinking of you and Stelle, I love you and I'm always here for you. I know that Granny will be okay... I know it in my heart of hearts, have faith and believe that you will see her at home soon. xoxoxoxo

Thank you everyone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

2009-02-04T14:36:00.002-05:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

DEAR ~JENN~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

everyone should go over and wish Jenn

a VERY happy birthday!

You can find her here:

My Kids Are My World

Jenn's Craft Blog ~ My Beautiful Creations

and Jenn's *NEW* photo blog

My World In Pictures!

Wednesday

2009-02-04T09:48:00.002-05:00

Today Brooke is doing great. No complaining at all. Thank goodness. :) Bryan goes to the doctors to check out what is making him not feel well. Trevor is off to school happy and healthy and I'm trying to get motivated today to clean up this house, do some laundry and work on some other things.

I have taken care of some BRIDAL SHOWER stuff... but I can't go into detail here, b/c SOMEONE ~ like Heather reads my blog. But we are definitely getting things all worked out. :)

I wanted the shower date to be a surprise as well, but I don't think we can do that, so we have decided to just tell her when it will be and keep the rest a secret. It should work out okay. :)

Monday...

2009-02-02T12:54:00.002-05:00

Is today really Monday? For some reason it feels like it should already be Wednesday. Hmmm... I guess it really is only Monday though. Wow, it sure is going to be a long week.

Brooke finished her antibiotics for her ear infections yesterday... it was day five for her. She still has to take her antibiotic for the pneumonia for five more days though. She hasn't been having any reaction to the antibiotics since the second day when she had diarrhea once. So that is good. BUT she has been complaining about her right ear really hurting her. She has been touching it here and there while playing, so I think it really is bugging her. I called the doctors office today to just check in and see what they thought about it. It was bulging when we were there on Friday and I don't want her ear drum to rupture or for her to have more problems with it than she already does. They told us to come in. So we did.

Her left ear is slightly red still, but looking really good and her right ear is red still, but not bulging and looking pretty good too. She has slight fluid on her left ear, and significant fluid on her right, but these things should heal up on their own, and if there is any infection there still the antibiotics she is on for the pneumonia will help to clear that up too. The doctor, who I'm very happy with, said it can take from 4-6 weeks for you to feel 100% normal again. He said most likely what she is feeling is pressure... which could cause her pain or discomfort, but at this point he thinks it is most likely just discomfort or different feeling and not pain. I'm really hoping she isn't in pain. I hate to give her meds, but if she is feeling pain I will keep her on the Tylenol or Motrin... but if it is only something different that makes her think it is pain, but really just pressure, I don't want to pump her full of meds. I guess we'll play it by ear... lol no pun intended. :P

Bryan is home on the couch sick. He vomited this morning at work and got really cold with chills and dizzy. He has a temp of 101.5 and just looks like SH!T... I offered to take him to Urgent Care, which is in the same building as the kids pediatrician, but he said he didn't want to go. So whatever. I can force him. I just hope he doesn't get worse, or give it to any of us. Ryan had strep, Walter had bronchitis and Steve had something that they put him on antibiotics for, so chances are he has something that will need medical attention... but we'll see.

I'm at my parents house, I'm waiting for the UPS delivery of some Stampin' stuff and then going to get Trevor from school and one more stop at the Post Office to get my package that they say I have... not sure what it could be but we'll see. It probably isn't even for me. Bummer.

Well that is all I got. I hope everyone is healthy and happy. We aren't starting off to good for 2009 in the healthy department, but I can only hope it gets much better. :)

Brooke & Family

2009-01-31T11:05:00.002-05:00

Brooke seems to really be feeling a lot better today. She hasn't even had any Tylenol or Motrin since last night and is still fever free and no ear pain. :) I'm so happy about that. So far so good. I'm hoping the rest of the day continues on pain and fever free for her.

Lauren and Brooke are playing with play-doh right now and watching Sponge Bob ~ who I hate. I can't stand that show, he is so annoying and obnoxious! ugh. But whatever. I have a MAJOR headache and terrible sinus pressure. I think that I definitely have a sinus infection... which I wish would just disappear NOW... like magic you know?

Bryan took Trevor ice fishing today. Which is really cool. I like going out on the lake, as long as it isn't windy or too cold. But it seems like they are going to have pretty warm temps, well at least warmer than it has been. It was only 15 degrees here last night anything warmer than that is good. ~ Kevin, Bryan's brother, is also going to go and our friend Steve is going too! It should be a fun day for them.

The ladies are getting together later to just hang out and bounce wedding ideas off each other and just chit chat... the guys are going to Desiree and Ryan's house to watch the UFC fight... but it starts at 10 PM... I'm guessing that I'm majorly getting OLD... because for anything to start at 10 PM makes my head hurt more. I want to be in bed sleeping for two hours at 10 PM. lol Maybe I only feel this way because I'm sick and cold and feel like my head is going to explode.

So today I'm just going to clean the house and do some laundry and take it easy. I'm really hoping that the girls take a good nap today, or any nap at all really so that I can rest some. I'm thinking that will be a good thing! REST... it sounds sooooo good right now.

Peace out Girl Scout!
(thanks Liz... btw that has been stuck in my head since you were here!) :P

more news on Brooke

2009-01-30T11:30:00.002-05:00

~ today we went back to the doctor, who I've decided I like. Brooke seems to like him too. She had to hide on him before he came in the room to see her. Then she was being silly with him while he was examining her. I'm glad that she is feeling better, and that she is liking the doctor. Those are both good things...

What is also good is that her lungs sound IMPRESSIVELY better. The doctor said he is very pleased and quite impressed with how fast her turn around has been with her lung health. He said he heard no wheezing and that means that the tightness is probably going away. She still has to finish both antibiotics still... the one for her ears and the one for her lungs. We go back on Wednesday to see him again to check everything once more and at that time she will have another chest x-ray to make sure we got everything with the antibiotic and also to make sure her collapsed lung is healing.

Also on the good news front is that she has NOT vomited in over 24 hrs. :) yay.

NOT so good news... she is having diarrhea from the meds, and although this is day three, she has only had two dosages of each because they have to be given around the same time each day for them to be the most effective, so that is what we are doing and that is around 2 PM and 5:30 PM... but the good thing is she ate frozen yogurt for me last night so hopefully that will balance out the diarrhea. We'll see. I'm going to try to get some more "ice cream" in her today too.

Also, not so good news, is that she isn't really drinking for us. She wants things like iced tea and milk when she does want to drink... neither of them are good for her right now. The caffeine in the iced tea, is NOT good at all for trying to get her re-hydrated and the milk will make the diarrhea worse. UGH! It is almost like she knows these aren't good and that is why she is choosing them, but I know that isn't the case. I have been trying hard to push the Pedialyte without ticking her off and having her not want to drink anything... but it is hard. She is very irritable. (the doctor said at this point he is thinking it is more because she is THREE rather than that she isn't feeling well :P I completely agree!)

MORE not so good news is that her ears still look bad, and she is still complaining about them... she has been complaining about her right ear the most, which was the one that wasn't the most infected when we went on Wednesday... BUT today the doctor said that they are both still really red, there is less puss with is a good sign, but now the right ear is "bulging" ~ not sure what this means, but it does NOT sound good.

She is also still have temps. Not too high because I have kept her medicated with Tylenol and Motrin every 5 hrs now. It was every four, but I've spread it out more because I thought it had to start getting better by now... I guess I was wrong. The doctor said that she can still spike high fevers till day 4 or 5 of the antibiotic... she is only on them for 5 days for her ears, but is on the one for her lungs for 10 days... so maybe that will continue to help her ears too. I hope they are much better by then, but we'll see. I'm hoping with today treatment of meds, day three, she starts to feel much better. :)

I would also like to stop having to give her the pain relievers at all, I'm not a huge fan of medication like that. But I'll do what is best for her and right now she really needs them, for the temps and also the pain.

I'm concerned about her RIGHT ear, well both of them, but the right one now that he said it is bulging. I would GOOGLE it, but I hate reading things that I find on there that are medical related because it usually scares the shit out of me. But maybe I will see what I find later. I'm not sure. I'd also like to really catch a nap later, I have been up since 5 AM this morning with Brooke & Lauren... Brooke was coughing terrible and Lauren was up because of that... and I'm beat.

The doctor said he can't prescribe her anything for her cough because it is not good for children under five and it is pretty much banned to give it to her by law, so that is good with me, I don't want to harm her at all, I only want to make her feel better. And, he agrees with me that over the counter medicines for cough and cold don't do diddly! ** I saw a study done that showed the effects of cough medicine ~ over the counter that is ~ and sugar water given to children had the same results. lol ~ I'm not a big medicine giver, but that also sealed the deal with me, I rarely give my children over the counter cough and cold meds. I usually use Vicks on their chest and feet, and I'm not sure if this works or not for medical issues, but it does make you feel better to have that soothing Vicks on you and it smells so darn good too! ~ so for me it works... because anything that is going to sooth you when you don't feel good is something that is working. :)

The doctor did tell me that I could and should give Brooke a breathing treatment when she is coughing really badly... not just a cough here or there, but when she is continuously coughing and can't seem to stop and/or catch her breath. He said to only do one treatment every 6-8 hrs for coughing IF NEEDED. I'm not really pushing the breathing treatments unless really NEEDED anyway because they are steroids and speed up her heart rate and also make her jittery. I don't like steroids, in general, I mean I LOVE them because they made Brooke feel a million times better and also made it so she could actually breath, but I just don't really like her having them. Her, or any of my kids. So we'll see. She has been having some really bad coughing "fits" in the early morning, for the last few days. So we might need to do a treatment or two. We'll see how it goes.

So I think that is all. At least it is all I can remember... Did I mention that we are going to go back on Wednesday... well we do. and that is when she will see the doctor again and also have another chest x-ray.

And also the doctor is impressed with how fast she is healing/getting better/stronger because he said most kids he would have to hospitalize. She is a tough little cookie and has always seemed to defy the laws of everything. LOL I'm glad she is doing so much better. I just really hope that the meds all work and she is back to 100% as soon as she is done with the antibiotics. :)

Thank you all for you kind words, support and well wishes, that is what is also helping us get through all this and making my little girl healthier and stronger every day. :) love to you all.

~Brooke~

2009-01-29T09:03:00.004-05:00

Where do I start...

Well Brooke has been really sick. She had a cold for a while, just like Trevor and Lauren, but hers seemed to just turn into something more. Late Sunday night, around 10 PM or so, Lauren came to get Bryan and I saying Brooke was throwing up. We ran upstairs and find her in vomit.
She was still trying to sleep though. We had to wake her up. Even though she had just vomited.
I just thought she must have been in a deep sleep because she had been in bed for about 2 hours.

We got her up and bathed her, where she vomited more. Now I'm wondering if she has a stomach bug or something because this doesn't totally seem related to coughing ~ which is why I thought she vomited at first.

We changed the bedding and got Lauren back in bed and Brooke and I snuggled up on the couch. She was warm. We snuggled. She was acting really sleepy and sort of out of it. I figured it was because it was late and she wasn't feeling well. We gave her some water and she threw up more. She must have vomited about 3 or 4 more times after her bath.

She seemed to be done with vomiting and I was holding her, she was now HOT. She was so hot, we were both damp from her sweat. I took her temp and it was 103.2. I was upset. I gave her Motrin and her temp seemed to come down. Not to a normal temp, but a lot better than 103.2. She slept pretty good, I was up every so often checking her and making sure she hadn't vomited or wasn't getting hot again.

Monday morning, I kept Trevor home from school. We had all had a long weekend, I thought he could use a day off, and I knew I could use a day off and that Brooke didn't need to get dragged out of the house in the cold and all that when she wasn't feeling well.

We all hung out. Brooke stayed on the couch ALL. DAY. LONG. she only went to the potty once. And she had to have me carry her. She seemed really weak and tired. She didn't have any interest in eating or drinking or doing anything at all. She slept about 95% of the day. I was wondering how she was going to sleep that night, but she still slept all night. She was very lethargic. Her eyes looked horrible, they were blood shot and had HUGE black bags under them. She had more temp too, it wasn't as high as 103 but it was in the 102's. I would give her Motrin when it was high. ~ For some reason it didn't really occur to me to keep her medicated with Tylenol and Motrin so that her fever didn't spike. Not that I don't know to do that, only because I don't usually give my children medicine for anything. Unless they really need something. Not that I'm against medicine, just that I don't give it often. I'm the same way with myself. Anyway...

Tuesday morning, she was still very lethargic and weak. I carried her every where. I got the three kids all ready to take Trevor to school and she was very clingy to me, and very quiet and sort of sad. I guess that is the only way to describe it. I got her to drink some for me, because I was concerned about her getting dehydrated. She didn't want to drink much, but I got some in her. We took Trevor to school and she seemed okay on the ride, not great, but okay. she mostly laid her head on her blanket and just rested. Not at all how she usually acts. I just thought sh really wasn't feeling well. It broke my heart that I had to take her out of the house. On our way home, she vomited. It wasn't much because she hadn't eaten anything and only had a little bit to drink. But she vomited till everything was out.

I tried to see if Bryan could some how pick Trevor up from school, or come stay home with Brooke so she wouldn't have to go out, but he couldn't. He was the manager that day and had already scheduled a lot of work for himself that had to be taken care of.

All day she laid on the couch and slept and just was very "out of it" all day long. We got Trevor and she slept the entire ride there. I carried her into his class to get him and she was just really quiet and laying on me, like she had no energy at all. And at this point she was feeling warm again.

We got home and she went back to laying on the couch. Trevor and Lauren were playing and everything else was going on around her like normal. Talking, playing, noises, the TV was on, and she just slept right through it all. She would barely wake up when we talked to her. She only wanted to sleep.

I talked to my mom and she said that I really shouldn't let this go on for too much longer before taking her to the doctors. I was concerned too, it had been two days since she had eaten anything and she wasn't drinking too well for us either. Plus the fact that all she wanted to do was sleep and lay around. She hadn't gotten off the couch, on her own, for two days now.

I called Tuesday night and made an appointment for Wednesday morning at 9:45 AM. Wednesday morning we got hit with snow, and lots of it, and on our way to the appointment it started to sleet. Bryan, kind of thought, I should reschedule her appointment because the roads were bad, but said to do whatever I felt comfortable with doing. I don't mind snowy roads, AND I was really concerned about Brooke so we went. I gave her a bath and got her all ready. She wasn't too active.

We picked up my dad and went off to the doctors. We got there about 15 minutes late because of the other cars on the roads and also the road conditions and the fact that it was then freezing rain. They still saw us because there were no other patients really, everyone else had pretty much canceled for the day.

Brooke had a temp of 101.2 when we got there. I told the nurse all her symptoms. She checked her oxygen level and it was normal. The doctor came in and checked her out. First thing off the bat we found out that she had a severe ear infection in her left ear, and another ear infection starting in her right ear. Both had puss in them. He listened to her lungs and heart. He heard a strong wheezing in her left lung. He thought she should have a breathing treatment and a chest x-ray and asked me if she ever had asthma. She has not. He also said that she was being to be dehydrated. After the breathing treatment, she started to act a lot better. She actually had some energy and was talking more and even wanted to walk. ~ They also gave her Tylenol for her fever.

Then we went downstairs for the chest x-ray. They took two and then back upstairs to see the doctor again. While we waited for the chest x-ray Brooke also decided she wanted to eat... the only thing I had in the bag with us was orange Tic Tac's, so she ate an entire container of them. Not the greatest breakfast, but she was happy, and really that was all that mattered to me at that time. I was so happy to see her up and talking moving and wanting to eat something... even if it was only Tic Tac's.

Upstairs we had to wait for the results of the x-rays. While waiting the doctor told me about the antibiotic he was giving Brooke for her ear infections. I thought that you don't always need an antibiotic for ear infections because they can just go away on their own in their own time, but I didn't want to even think about that this time, I just wanted her better. She was obviously really sick and needed some sort of medicine. He told me how the antibiotics could make her have diarrhea, and that yogurt would help stop that. Brooke won't eat yogurt, so we decided that frozen yogurt might be the way to go with that. He also said that she needs to be drinking Pedialyte to make sure she doesn't get dehydrated more, especially while on the antibiotics that may cause diarrhea.

He finally got the results of the chest x-ray and she has pneumonia. She has a haze on her left lung and it is starting to collapse. He said that he thought it was pneumonia from the wheezing and tightness that he heard in her lung. He then wrote me a script for a breathing machine and the medicine for that and another script for antibiotic for the pneumonia.

I had all I could do to hold myself together in that room. I couldn't believe that my little baby girl had so much going on with her... double ear infections, dehydrated, pneumonia and her lung collapsing!! OMG!! I had a few tears and some how got myself pulled together. We left the doctors office and got all her scripts filled and went to pick up Bryan from work and then to Wal-Mart to get Pedialyte and frozen yogurt. Brooke also wanted chicken nuggets and french fries. Since this was the first she has shown any interest in food in two and 1/2 days we took the kids for lunch. She did good with eating. But on our way home, she threw it all up. :( I guess vomiting is another sign of pneumonia. Who knew?

Last night she had a temp of 103.9. I was freaking out. I gave her Motrin and it SLOWLY came down. I have kept her medicated with Tylenol and Motrin every four hours, or so... we didn't get it exact in the night, although she was up most of the night anyway, but she is doing good. Her temp is at 98.1 and has stayed there all morning. She is up and playing and doing pretty good.

Last night she got a burst of energy that lasted from 8PM till about 3 AM... I was so beat, but I stayed up with her. I tried numerous times to get her to sleep, but she just wasn't having it. lol I'm glad she is feeling better.

I'll keep everyone posted on her conditions and all. She also has another appointment on Friday with the doctor for a follow up.

morning updates

2009-01-27T08:09:00.002-05:00

Brooke slept in her own bed last night... which was good. I was concerned on how she would do, but she had been okay all afternoon and evening with no vomiting and we got her temp to go down. Most of all, she wanted to sleep in her "big girl" bed with her new sheets on it. I was beat. I did laundry and cleaning and more laundry and cleaning all day long. I had weekend laundry to catch up from and sick child laundry to do.

I fell asleep on the couch while the kids watched some tv. We got them in bed pretty early. It was before 8:30, I think. I could have been earlier. But then I thought I would watch some tv and just relax some, I fell right to sleep again.

Brooke was good all night. Bryan got up to check her... he said she was a little bit warm, but nothing major. This morning she came down stairs all by herself into our room to tell us she needed some Ginger Ale. So we got up with her then, and she was okay.

She did vomit again this morning, but it was mostly phlegm.... sorry to be descriptive, but I think that is just because it was morning time and she has that in her little body and it needed to come out. I'm hoping she doesn't vomit any more today.

She is still a little bit warm, but I'm holding off on giving her Motrin because we gave her some cough medicine, and I really HATE to give them meds. I especially hate to pump them full of them if A. they don't really need them and/or B. they aren't going to do anything. I sort of feel this way about the cough meds, but Bryan thought she should have them.

I have a headache again this morning, seems to be the norm lately, and my throat is a little sore/itchy... could be dry house, and I have one nostril that is clogged. I'm not feeling too perky but I still think it could be from lack of sleep.

Trevor is good. :) Thankfully!!

AND Lauren is good. :) Thankfully!!

AND Bryan has no man cold or other germs so that is GREAT!! ;)

Brooke Update

2009-01-26T15:53:00.002-05:00

Brooke is sleeping... again. She has slept most of today. I guess that is good. Even if we are up all night long tonight... I just want for her to feel better. She must have needed this rest. She has not moved off the couch all day today.

She has kept down some Sprite and some water. But, now, she doesn't want anymore, well not now, now... because right now she is sleeping, but just before when I offered it to her, she didn't want any drink. I always worry so much about the kids getting dehydrated when they are sick. I always try to push fluids... but without making them sick. So I'm not really pushing her yet... she did drink and hopefully Bryan will be able to find Ginger Ale for her, she had to call him herself and request it. :)

We have all been having a lazy day. Which we all needed. I was going to keep Trevor home from school even before the night I had with Brooke. I think he needed one day of just hanging out and relaxing. We all had a long weekend.

We have watched. Tinkerbell, Cinderella III, Meet the Robinson's and now we are watching Terabithia (sp?).

I took Brooke's temp again this afternoon after a dose of Motrin, and it was 101.5 Not great but not horrible. And just before I came down to type this... I felt her head and she felt okay. It is hard to tell because she is under three fleece blankets, she keeps telling me she is freezing... must be because of the fever. Poor baby. :(

So that is all for now. I'm hoping when she wakes up again, to get her to drink some more. And, I'll take her temp again and maybe she will feel like having a nice bath... it always makes me feel better to take a shower... even when I don't feel sick... it just feels good. So maybe she would like a bath. I'll have to see what she thinks of that. Plus her and Lauren always take baths together so it would maybe be a treat for them to each get their own bath.

It has been really hard today to keep Lauren & Trevor away from Brooke, they both want to get right in her face and touch head or her hands and ask her how she is feeling. It is super sweet. They also keep asking her if she wants a drink or has to go potty or wants something to eat... or if she is cold or going to throw up. They are trying to take good care of their baby sister, but I really don't want them to get this... but chances are if they are going to get it even if I kept them away today they are going to get it. I just hope they don't.

Well I'm off to take care of more laundry... and check on my Brookie girl.

xoxo

ZZZZZzzzzz

2009-01-26T13:17:00.002-05:00

Oh. excuse me. I fell asleep here.
I had a GREAT weekend, lots of good times, fun and memories made with my girls... and the guys too! It ended up being a busy but AWESOME weekend. :) I will have to post about all the details soon.

Heather's grandmother is doing okay. They were going to do surgery today, early this morning to be exact, but last night they changed their mind. They being the doctors. They are thinking they will wait till Wednesday or some time later this week and see how things are then. I'm not quite sure why the hold up, but I think it has something to do with her lungs... she has or had, I'm not sure what state it is in now... pneumonia, so they want that all taken care of before surgery. Better to be sure she is as healthy as possible before proceeding with brain surgery, but the waiting really sucks.

If you could all keep Heather, her grandmother and the family in your thoughts and prayers that would be greatly appreciated. It is still a rough and scary time and we aren't sure of the outcome the surgery will have with her grandmother.

I'm falling asleep here at the computer because I was up all night last night with my baby girl Brookie... and actually with my baby girl Lauren... she was staying up with me at first because, I'm sure she was worried about Brooke and then also to make sure she didn't miss anything, like watching tv and hanging out with Mommy and Brooke. But it ended up that Lauren was really a big helper. Brooke was throwing up in her bed, and Lauren came to wake up Bryan and I. It was only about 8:45- 9:15 PM or so... but we were beat... we all had a LONG weekend... So we get up and check her out. She is covered in vomit and sleeping in it. :( Poor baby. Broke my heart. We get her up and give her a bath, put new clothes on her and get her settled on the couch... she continued to throw up in the bath and once she was out too.
I first thought that she was throwing up from coughing so much, but after she just kept doing it we figured it must be some sort of bug, and then we also realized she was burning up. I gave her some Motrin, but she just threw it all up. Bryan went off to bed and I stayed up with my little princess... holding her and sweating my butt off... she was so hot. I kept on giving her sips of water to keep her hydrated and also to maybe help her feel better, but she'd only keep it down for a little while then she would vomit again.
At one point in the night her fever was 103.2 I was really scared, but know that small/young children can have high temps with out it being too dangerous and if I could just monitor it and try to get it to go down at all it would/should be okay. Finally I got some Motrin in her and she fell sound asleep and thank goodness kept it down.
I checked it about an hour or so later and it had gone down, not to normal, but to 101.2 so that was at least better.
She woke up this morning throwing up/dry heaving some more and then was burning up again. Today her temp was only at 102.5 so that is a lot better than the 103.2. I got some Sprite in her, we have no Ginger Ale, Bryan is bringing some home for her, but she drank some Sprite and has kept it down and I gave her Motrin about 15-20 minutes ago and she kept that down too, so far. I hope she can keep it down and rest some more so she will feel better. I am also hoping this is a 24 hr bug and that she will be feeling better really soon.

She has laid on the couch all day long and hasn't wanted to do much of anything but sleep. At least when she is sleeping I know she is comfy and not feeling sick.
She is still coughing some. I just feel so bad. I wish it were me instead of her. I hate when my kids are sick. :(

Well I'm off to go check on her and see if I can get Trevor and Lauren to take a nap... I could really use one myself. I have the Tinkerbell movie on, so maybe they will all fall asleep. :)

I'll try to update later on how Brooke is doing and feeling. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers, please.

xoxo

Soups on...

2009-01-23T13:42:00.002-05:00

Okay... well the soup really isn't on... but there is water on the stove, I'm going to start part of my dinner now, so after I get Trevor from school I can come home stuff the shells and have dinner in the oven for Bryan and the kids. Tonight I'm going to meet one friend, Heather, at her house and ride with her to meet our other friend, Liz, and then go see Heather's g'ma and then grab a few things from Michael's for wedding ideas, then maybe grab some food then home again home again jiggity jig.

Then Liz is staying over for the weekend, and not that she cares at all... because she SO doesn't, but I've been trying to get the house cleaned up... like get all the dust bunnies and cob webs. Fun! Fun!

I only have less than an hour to work on laundry start dinner and clean up some, and then I have to go get Trevor from school, soooo since everyone knows I'm a HUGE procrastinator, HERE I AM!!!

I'm going to go visiting all your blogs now!! I miss you all so!

xoxox

PS if I don't or didn't' get to you today please don't take it personal, it is just that I'm crazy and busy and that means I'm crazy busy, but I will be around soon to visit ALL of you. thanks for being so understanding!!

Update...

2009-01-23T10:37:00.002-05:00

Just thought I'd update a few things that have been going on and things that I have blogged about but didn't ever do a follow up blog about...

the MySpace problem... I found out that now her page is set to private... so although I'd love to tell her to bug off and take the pics down, there isn't really a huge reason now to have a fight with her over it. And honestly, although this isn't very mature of me, I just won't even have it in me to argue with her or deal with her shit at all ~ whether she was snotty or whiny or whatever, I'd just end up punching her in the face. ~ I know, I know... not good. Sorry. I'm just beat and don't have very much patients lately, and lack some rational thinking due to it all.

Trevor with school ~ not any better yesterday... if possible it was worse, because now he has added sarcasm to it all too. GREAT! But, he is still on punishment... NO electronics... which he hasn't asked for either... ugh. You just can't win. Take them away and they don't seem to miss them. When really I thought just the idea of taking away his PSP would get him to straighten up... b/c he is like Alex ~ Missy's son... (you can and should check out Missy's blog... it is on my blog roll ~ I'd link her to this post but I'm at my parents house and it seems like wayyy to much work... but if I have some time at home I will link her.. it is under Sam, Missy & Alex) anyway... I thought that he NEEDED his PSP ... like as in need it more than AIR! ~ that is exactly what Missy said... it is something they need! lol

Well I reminded Trevor that today was Friday he had gym... he should get his energy out there and be good the rest of the day for his teacher... b/c today was his last chance to get to earn back any electronics for the weekend... if there was not significant improvement... like 150% improvement... then NO electronics ALL weekend. That would not be fun. So I'm hoping he does good today. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Thank you all for your comments the support, encouragement and understanding is so greatly appreciated. :) It is nice to know we aren't the only ones... that you have all or are in the same boat. :)

As for my friend Heather and her Grandmother ~ Heather is doing okay. Keeping her worrying at bay for now. Her Grandmother seems to be doing good too. She does have a tumor on the front of her brain, but they feel it isn't cancerous... and they have surgery scheduled for Monday. The surgery itself should only take about an hour and 15 mins or so. And then I'm pretty sure Heather said she will be able to come home in three days after the surgery. So that will be really good! I know she hates hospitals, which who really loves having to be in the hospital? But, anyway, it will be good to get this all taken care of. Thank you for all your kind thoughts and your prayers, they are doing a good job!! I'll keep everyone posted on how things are going. And we are actually getting together with our friend from Jersey and the three of us are going to see her Grandmother tonight. It'll be nice to get to see her. :)

So that is all for now. I'm supposed to be cleaning and doing a few other things... that I NEED to get done... so I better head off for now. I'm also hoping to have some time to check out all your blogs too.... sorry I haven't been around.

xoxoxo

Could it BE??

2009-01-22T16:56:00.005-05:00

could it be that I'm able to steal a few minutes from about fifty million other things, including making dinner for my children, to blog??

i have been so crazy. and honestly it feels like i'm just running in circles CONSTANTLY! and from this constant running, i'm beat. i'm so tired and drained and have had a headache every. single. day for the last week, at least. it could be longer but it hurts my brain to try to think back too far.

Heather & her family could still use some prayers, her grandmother is in the hospital and doing okay, but still in CCU and needing surgery. So any thoughts, prayers and good vibes, please keep them coming.

Trevor is having a hard time being quiet and paying attention in school, a first for this year. I'm not sure what is going on. Bryan and I talked with him and with each other and we have a plan set for trying to enforce and encourage good behavior in school. I also spoke to his teacher and seem to have some lines of communication there, which is good. So far today wasn't any better. I'm genuinely surprised, I thought the talk we had with him last night would have helped. Maybe he needs a few days more of it to sink in. We have also taken away, his PSP, the Playstation 3, the Wii and even his Leapster. There will be NO electronics for this boy till his behavior is tip top shape in school.

Well that is all for now, I have to get something started for dinner. Hopefully I'll be back later.

Prayers Please

2009-01-20T13:50:00.001-05:00

Please pray for my friend and her family. They are having some family emergencies and could really use some extra help. Once I have permission to give more details I will, but for now please pray for strength, health and hope.

thank you!
xoxoxoxo

Busy

2009-01-19T14:36:00.002-05:00

I'm busy today and have been all weekend... it seems like all of a sudden a million things are hitting me all at once. I promise to get back to blog-world soon, and also to work on Questions for the people that commented on my questions from Lou and wanted to play along. I haven't forgotten, just been super, crazy, busy.

We had a busy weekend, and this week seems to be just as busy, with lots of plans and things going on. All good things, so that makes going crazy an okay thing! :P

I have all three kids home today, and Trevor is here with a complaint that no one is helping him clean up, so I better get going and take care of that, since today I am head of the Complaint Dept. and also the Branch Manager for the monkeys! :P

I'll be around soon, I hope. I also have some more pictures to add to my Priceless blog... I did add a few the other day, if you haven't gone to see them you should check them out... it's pictures of these really cute kids I know. :)

take care, and sorry I haven't been around more often to all of your blogs... I haven't forgotten... I promise!

My Interview/Questions from LOU!

2009-01-15T20:46:00.002-05:00

Here are my questions...

1-What is your favorite childhood memory?

wow. I'm not sure if I can pinpoint just one... I have so many. We did a lot of great trips and things when I was growing up and still do actually. I have to say that most of my fondest memories are of camping trips. We would go a lot of places and one of my favorite places to go camping was and still is Connecticut on the Long Island Sound, it is just a beautiful place to go. I hope that my children will have the same fond memories that I do from camping there. I also have very fond memories of Holiday's. Lots of people around and lots of good food and good times. I love getting together with my family now for Holiday's as well, so I guess the fond memories will just keep growing.
BUT, if I had to pinpoint just ONE favorite memory... I think it would have been the afternoon, I was in third grade, and it was my birthday, May 12th, I got off the bus from school and there were two kids in the yard, a boy and a girl, and my mom's friend Cathy was over too. I asked my mom who the kids were and she said "Carlos & Jessica. They are going to be your brother and sister!" I was so happy. I can remember how awesome it felt. I was finally getting a sister and I was also getting another brother along with her. I was so excited and they were so cute. Jessica was 12 days away from turning one and Carlos was 2 1/2 months from turning three. They were so much fun, and I loved them so much from that very moment of seeing them playing in the yard. We had some of the best memories with them, that is still one of my most favorite childhood memories. :) Bitter sweet in the aftermath, but none the less a favorite!

2-Who is the person you most admire - that is alive today?

I'd have to say that there isn't just one person... it is people and they are my parents. :) They are amazing. They have been married for 38 yrs, which is rare, but good! They are both really hard workers and always do whatever they can to help anyone, especially, but not only, family. They are very honest and good hearted people. They really go out of their way for anyone they meet, even if they just met you. I guess one fault you can say they have, is that they are too generous to their children... if that is a fault. They give give and give some more. They are always there to lend a hand or support or a shoulder for any reason. When I was younger I thought they were the strictest parents and I often disliked some of their decisions they made when allowing or not allowing me to do certain things, especially when other kids were going or doing it... but today, I thank them for it. I couldn't imagine growing up with different parents, I know they really loved me and cared and that is why they did the thing they did... for my best interest.

3-If you could live anywhere - where would that be?

Hmmm... now this is a tough question... I have asked myself this exact question many many times. Bryan and I have discussed moving south so many times. We really want to, and maybe one day we will. We are sick of cold weather and snow and just this area is getting more and more expensive and less and less attractions to keep us here. The one thing that holds us here tighter than crazy glue is our families and friends. I couldn't imagine living any further from my parents than I do now... which is about 10 miles. It would kill me to not see them as often as I do, which is less often now that we moved, which sucks, but still more often than if we moved to SC, which is where we thought about.

BUT if I could take my family and friends and everyone to make everyone else happy, the I would LOVE to live in Spain or Italy or some where really great... or Australia... it would so amazing to get to live some where else and learn all the culture and ways of life. It would be really amazing to get to see my children experience that. I'm sure I won't be able to live in any of these places, but I hope to at least visit one day. :)

4-What do you like to eat when you're feeling 'down'?

The really strange thing is that I don't really eat when I'm feeling down... when I'm feeling down, I just, hmm... what do I do. I guess the thing is that I don't really let myself feel down all to often, I block that emotion and usually just get mad/pissed off... those feelings are easier for me to deal with and let others see. I wouldn't want anyone to see me be really sad or down. You know, unless it was something really horrible like a death or something, then of course I would show that sensitive, vulnerable side, but most of time I don't let myself, even when I'm alone, get to 'down'. Maybe I need to loose the tough girl stuff some... huh? AND, truth be told, I love to eat ALL. THE. TIME!! I love to snack on junk stuff... and I love to eat REAL food!! I'm a big eater... I plan much of my time around eating and all that. :)

And because I liked this question best when Maggie asked me -
5-What do you like most about being a woman?

There are many things that I like about being a woman... like everything. But, the one thing that was the most amazing thing I have experienced as a woman was carrying a baby. And not that it was more amazing than carrying a baby, because nothing can top that... but it was so amazing in it's own way and in a different way, was carrying two babies at once. And of course giving birth was pretty amazing too... and then the best part of all that is being a MOMMY! Can't beat it. Not with anything!

Don't forget the rules....

You have to link back to the original post
Maggie's Mind and
also to my post
Lou Ceel and
include the following in your post:

Want to be part of it? Follow these instructions:
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by emailing you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone
else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them
five questions.

STAY TUNED

2009-01-14T09:24:00.002-05:00

You should stay tuned for your health... like a tune up for you car, you should do that for your body.

OR you could stay tuned, so you are always IN tune... so you don't sing off key... LOL

BUT...

what I'm really talking about it staying tuned in here at Crazy Magic... blah blah blah... because I am lucky enough to be questioned... or is it interviewed??? Since I'm not under arrest I'm assuming it is meant to be an interview, not a questioning. ANYWAY... Lou has some questions for me... and I'm going to try to get to them today... it is a really fun sort of meme blog thing... you'll see. I'll be posting the questions and answers, hopefully, today. :)

SO....

STAY TUNED!! :P

Too Much Fast Food??

2009-01-14T08:10:00.000-05:00

While I was happily packing up the Christmas stuff, by myself. The kids were playing really nicely with one another. I was truly enjoying having Trevor home and hearing them all get along so well and make up different games and such.

They all had a baseball hat, button down shirt, and sunglasses, compliments of Trevor and his fabulous wardrobe!! :) And they all got really NOISY, really cool, and really noisy, light up laser NOISY guns for Christmas, so they had them too.

I hear them coming out of Trevor room and he is telling them how they are on a secret mission, and they aren't allowed to shoot any people but watch out for bad guys, cause you gotta shoot them.

I was cracking up. I guess bad guys and people are totally different. And, I have to admit I do really side with him on this. I would never shoot a random person, but if there was a bad guy and he was doing wrong or harm, then I would shoot him.

So, they call come out of the room and are searching around for the perp, and I hear Lauren tell Brooke & Trevor, "Shhhhh, we have to be quiet. We are Super-Sized!" so then Brooke was saying "Yeah, we are SUPER-sized." They were both all excited about it.

After I had heard them each say "Super Sized" for about the second time, I knew what they were trying to say... which was Super Spies. lol That really had me cracking up. Trevor and I told them that it was Super Spies but they just wanted to keep on saying Super Sized. lol

I was wondering if maybe we eat out at fast food too much??

more ROCKING blog stuff..

2009-01-12T12:00:00.001-05:00

so... it seems that when posting my ROCKING blog buddies post...

I failed to mention/include

my ROCKING blog friend LOU!!

He is totally awesome and a really good friend to me.

I said... "girls" and that excluded my Manly Man Lou...

and I'm sorry.

SO... I wanted to apologize

and also send you all to check out his blog...

he is great!!

AND today is a great day to go over and say "hi"

because he is a cool meme-interview thing up

and you can learn some more about him. :)

very fun!!

Lou, please forgive me... I beg of you! :)

ROCKING!!

2009-01-11T20:41:00.003-05:00

I have most rocking blog friends ever!! You guys totally gave the BEST advice... mostly because you agreed with me and supported me on the fact that...

1. this bitch shouldn't have pictures of my kids posted ANY WHERE without my permission.

2. that it doesn't matter if it causes WW6 and I have to lay the smack down on her candy ass, I still need to say something and have every right to say something.

3. she is a bitch.

4. she needs to get kicked in the head. AND since a few of you said this... I'm thinking, seriously that she needs to get kicked in the head repeatedly and on numerous occasions. lol (just kidding, I'm not that violent.................. well not YET anyway!)

AND... I am going to say something directly to her... and I'm going to make sure there is a live audience so that my words cannot be twisted in any way, shape or form, not that I give a shit... I'll just have ONE more reason to add to my many of why I ~~HATE... too strong of a word, and I'm trying to use it less!~~ dis-like ~~HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE with a passion! HATE HATE HATE!~~ this ~~skank bitch!~~ girl!

BUT ... Missy has graciously offered to be in charge of gathering bail money... you know... in case I have to bring the SBWAK ~ aka ~ Skank Bitch Whoop Ass Kit and use it on her. THANK you very much Missy! And anyone that would like to help with the bail money that is much appreciated also. IF you are interested in helping with the SBWAK, well then I might have to charge you... it is, I'm sure, going to be a LOT of fun!! Well on second thought, since you are my girls and I love you so... there won't be any charge! you can use my SBWAK kit! :)

I'll keep you all posted on what happens when I finally get to track this dirty whore down and tell her NICELY about the pictures!! THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT & CARING!! <3

What to do?

2009-01-10T15:15:00.002-05:00

I was just searching around with my friends last night on some people's MySpace pages, which I do not have one of. While on there, we saw a girls page that I'm not friendly with and actually had words with on New Years Eve, because she is a chronic trouble maker, and big time liar. We ended our words with the idea that I wouldn't kill her, but that we aren't friends and I would just deal with her because she is our cousin's girlfriend. End of discussion. So anyway... while on her page we saw pictures that she posted from New Years... she had pictures of everyone on there, and it was kind of annoying because truth be told, no one likes her or can stand her, and she pretty much knows this but still wants to put it out there that she is all friendly friendly with all of us. Whatever. I could care less. Those that know me, know I can't stand that two faced, fake ass, lying bitch and so they know we aren't friends. And, for those that don't know me, well then since they don't know me I could care less what they think of me. lol

BUT! here is the big BUT!! I found pictures of my kids on her page. AND her page is public! Of course you are all like... "well you have pictures of your kids on your blog.... so what." BUT my deal is this... ONE... this is a blog. and most people that are here, I am "friends" with or are friends of a friend of mine... I don't think blogs get as much attention as MySpace... so there for the pictures that I have up of my children are not viewed by a large audience. Also they are my children and my pictures. On her page, they are MY children and she posted them with out permission on a very public site.

AND to top it all off... she spelt Trevor's name wrong. Now I know she is completely stupid and ignorant silly little pig, but come on now... if you are going to plaster your page with pictures of my children at least spell their name right. jeez.

So I want to say something to her. I want to tell her that she has to take them down, that I do NOT want them up... and I really don't and honestly it isn't just picking at her... I wouldn't want them up on any one's page on MySpace, but all the others are set to private and ONLY their friends can view the pictures they have.

BUT... another big one... I know this will start world war three... or what is it for us... maybe world war six. SOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooo... I wanted to know what you all think about it and what you would do.

I totally want to kick this bitch's ass for this and many reasons, but I'm trying to be a lot more grown up this year and not let petty shit like her bother me.

Looking forward to hearing your thoughts.

xoxoox thanks

Uh Oh!

2009-01-09T10:09:00.003-05:00

This morning, while having a disturbing dream, Trevor came and woke me up. It was about 5:17 AM. I had a feeling I knew what was going on, but was hoping it was because his blankets fell off or something.

Nope.

He didn't feel good. His belly was hurting him. I get him in bed with us and cover him up and start to rub his sore/upset belly for him.

Bryan went to get something for him to vomit in. We knew it would be coming.

Sure enough it came.

And it just kept on coming. He finally threw up for the last time around 7:45 AM. My poor boy didn't have very much to get out, but his body kept trying to get it all out. It sucked.

I hate this.

The funny thing is that we thought he was done with this... he was totally fine the two weeks he was off from school. No problems what-so-ever. I had even mentioned this to my mom. Now school started again and he is vomiting again.

I sat down this morning and wrote down all that he has been eating the past week to see if I can find anything that would cause this. So far the only thing I see is that he drinks more milk in school than home, and in school it is mostly chocolate milk.

I am going to do some internet research and see what I can come up with and also, today, I'm calling his insurance company to switch is health care provider. I'm not at all pleased with any of the new doctors I have seen at our practice, and that is enough reason for me to change doctors.

Trevor seems to be feeling better now, he is up and playing, but then again he is a kid and could just be feeling good now so he is playing and will throw up again, but I really hope not. I hope he is done and done for good, but if I can't have that, then I hope he is at least done for today.

Today's Message...

2009-01-08T13:25:00.000-05:00

Life is short,

Break the rules,

Forgive quickly,

Kiss slowly,

Love truly,

Laugh uncontrollably,

And never regret

anything that made

you smile.

Interesting

2009-01-07T11:55:00.004-05:00

Trevor gets to go to the library every Tuesday in school, and then for some weird ass reason they have to bring the book back in on Wednesday... seems like they should be able to have it a little longer, but whatever.

What is interesting is his selection of books. We have had a wide array of them...

there is the typical kindergarten boy book... Biscuit. cute. readable. good starter books.

then there was the book on volcano's. can totally get it, he likes them. they talked about it in school. okay. still not very interesting or strange.

then there was the book on bikes. all kinds of bikes. motocross, choppers, crotch rockets, you name it, the book had it in there. still normal. he loves bikes. okay...

then we switched it up to All About Africa.... does the boy even know what Africa is? Nope. I read it to him, he barely paid attention, it was okay I learned a little bit anyway.

then there was the book on Running Backs. All about them, their career, what one does, and some of the famous ones of past and present. Okay. He likes football... b/c his daddy does. he wants to play football b/c his daddy does. BUT do we need to read a book about Running Backs? nope. he barely paid attention to that one either.

then there was the book on POODLES. yep. every size and style. the history of them and all that. he paid attention a little bit because he likes dogs. it was an okay book.

this week he brought home Military Vehicles and Weapons. we haven't read it yet, b/c he is off today so I'm sure we'll get to it some time today.

I'm just amazed at the variety of books he brings home. I'm glad though, it is good to broaden your horizons and what you learn about. :) He has broadened his from fictional puppies, to bikes, to running backs to Africa, to motorcycles, to Poodles, to military stuff... I wonder what he will bring home next week. :)

Lucky One

2009-01-07T11:01:00.004-05:00

Yeah baby I'm the lucky one. :) Or whatever. I got to drag out the Christmas decoration boxes and then, I also got to put up most if not all, well lets just say 99.9999999% of them, I did have some assistance from the kids... the five and three year old kids, mind you.

AND!!! AND! AND! AND and and and and and and and GUESS WHAT!!! NO! really take a guess!! Go ahead!!

I get to take them all down. ALL by myself!! Nope, I don't even get any help from the five and three year olds. NONE. Zip. Nata. NO HELP. yay!! :) I'm delirious with excitement!! I can hardly stand to take a break from doing it to come type this post. :P

I have most of the stuff piled up on the couch... dangerous to leave it there with all three kids playing in the living room right now. My thought process is sort of like... the more they break the less I have to pack away. JUST KIDDING. lol (well sort of b/c it is true. what they break won't get kept and packing into a garbage bag is a LOT easier than a Rubber Maid bin! just sayin')

So now I'm off to dig out the Christmas bins that are buried in my bedroom, the 1/2 we aren't using yet. And, BTW, when I say "buried" I'm not just saying it because they are under one or two things, or just in the back corner and I have to take a few more steps to get to them... I'm sayin' they are BURIED!! Like buried under tons of crap. Crap that was all over the house, that we took from all the rooms of the house and shoved in our bedroom before our New Years Eve party. Yeah. That kind of buried. Oh the joy. OH the fun of being the one that gets to take care of all this. I freakin' love it. :D <----- that is me with a huge big smile on my face!! I can't wait to get back to the cleaning up!

**all sarcasm aside, I am happy to be the one to get to do all this because then I know it is done right and nothing will get broken, I mean once I have it packed that is... while on the couch there are NO guarantees. AND, also taking down all the Christmas decorations is making my house look very empty-ish... BUT in a good way! like less clutter. so maybe I will ONLY have to take down the decorations and put them away and I can be done with this cleaning and organizing shit I was thinking about. ~ just a thought. we'll see. **

I've Got a Date...

2009-01-07T09:24:00.002-05:00

I've got a date with a big black garbage bag today. Well actually I guess you can call me run around Sue, because I have a date with a few of them. :)

I got this email today :

~MCSD Schools are CLOSED today, Wednesday, Jan. 7, due to severe winter weather conditions. ~

No school for Trevor means lots of work for me. I don't loose anytime running him to school and picking him up. We leave here at 8:20 AM and then I get back home around 9:20-30 -- if I come straight home, if not then we get here around 11:20-30 (some times later) and then I have to leave here at around 2:20-30 to go get him from school. Not that I mind. But it just takes up some time.

So today I'm going to attempt to take down all the Christmas decorations. Oh! no, that isn't what I'm using the big black garbage bags for...the decorations I'll pack up, the garbage bags are because we are going through as many rooms as we can today and getting rid of old toys, broken stuff, junk, stuff we don't need, use, want or love = garbage.

I have so much "STUFF" every where, I just want less of it. Toys are one thing... we are over whelmed with them too, but at least they are toys... and serve a purpose. STUFF just random stuff, I can't deal with. I am loosing my patients with having stuff sitting around every where. It is so much easier to stay organized and also keep things clean with less clutter, so that is what we are shooting for today. :)

I'll be back to let you all know how my date goes!! :)

Oodles of Noodles

2009-01-06T13:15:00.001-05:00

Oodles of Noodles and Oodles of Laundry and cleaning too. I'm off to eat some cup of soup oodles of noodles with the girls in between doing oodles of laundry and when I'm done, I'll start one of the oodles of projects I have with cleaning our house. Fun times.

Fun with Twins

2009-01-06T07:37:00.002-05:00

I guess this could have happened with any siblings, but it just made a good post title to say twins, and after all, that is what the girls are. :)

Poor Lauren has been coughing up a storm, so I have been giving her cough medicine, over the counter stuff, that most likely doesn't do anything, but maybe psychologically make her and I think it is doing something and help in a very small way that way. Anyhow, my poor sweet girl has been coughing a lot, and when she goes to bed it seems like it is NON-stop coughing.

We propped her head up more so that maybe it would help. She seems to sleep through the coughing though so at least that is good.

Last night though, just as we went to lay down she was coughing, coughing, coughing. I heard her over the monitor. I was had just made it upstairs to check on her and give her a drink and fix her pillows when she gagged and threw up... on HERself, HER pillow, BROOKE and BROOKE's pillow. Yum.

She is now awake. She is also upset that she threw up. I start to pick her up when she throws up again, this time all over the blankets that were covering her. I call for Bryan over the monitor. He comes up stairs. I get her out of bed and she throws up on the floor and all over her jammies (whatever wasn't covered the first time).

We get her stripped down and give her a drink. She stops coughing. Thankfully. I get her all washed up and in new jammies. She is feeling great. :) (she even said she felt great!) lol Bless her heart.

Bryan takes out the pukey blankets and we start to get Brooke up to change her. She wakes up after I have her jammies off and start to wash her arm. She is happy and smiling. It is after 11 PM but not much later than that. We get her changed. She is now wide awake with Lauren.

They are smiling, happy girls. Amazing. :) We fix their bed up and tuck them in. They went to bed easier this time then the original time we put them in that night and they were actually both in a good mood. ~ I can't even wake them up from naps because they cry and carry on and have such an attitude and fit that lasts until they go back to bed that night, it is unreal. So who knew that they would be okay with all this last night.

I also put some Vick's on Lauren's chest AND much to Bryan's second guessing on the bottom of Lauren's feet. He doesn't think there is any way that this would really help and/or work. BUT, she did cough a LOT less. I'm willing to try almost anything to make her feel better and be able to sleep more comfortably, especially if it's as simple as putting Vick's on the bottom of her feet.

Well I guess I should go start to motivate the troops. I am not feeling well at all this morning, my stomach is NOT happy, so it may take us more time to get going and get out of the house this morning than usual. Better start now then.

~570 Posts~

2009-01-06T01:12:00.003-05:00

I have posted on this blog 570 times. That is pretty cool, at least to me.

I'm still up. It is already "tomorrow" at 1:13 AM. I'm going to be one tired mama when I have to get out of bed and function.

But, honestly... I'm enjoying the quiet time.

I updated and blinged out my blogs. That took F.O.R.E.V.E.R!

I must be dumb or something because I have NO freakin' clue how to save all your info,

like your link list and such when you change your template.

VERY frustrating. So I had to visit copy and paste all of your blogs to both my blogs.

BUT...

at least I still have every one's info and can still find you all!

Well I think I have done enough computer/blog stuff.

I'm off to bed.

xoxoxo

2009-01-05T18:57:00.003-05:00

I just posted some new pictures on my Priceless Pictures blog...

it isn't all of the ones I wanted to post

but my neck is killing me from sitting here for so long.

I have been here putting pictures on the computer from the camera,

and then editing them in Picnik

then adding them to the blog.

It seems like it is taking FOREVER and five or six days

to do any of this.

I have had enough...

at least for now.

I'm going to have a cup of french vanilla coffee

with french vanilla creamer

and go over my grocery list.

crap

2009-01-05T16:01:00.002-05:00

crap. not enough time to post pictures before dinner.
I'm home. got Trevor from school. he had a great day, but is tired. I can tell because he is slightly whiny, not too bad though.
I know I'm tired and I didn't even go to school today. :P

got some Christmas decorations down. so that's a good start.
I also put laundry in the dryer.
started another load in the wash.
picked up all the beads the girls had scattered every where.
took out the garbage.
picked up a bunch of toys in the living room.
put away clean laundry that I folded out of the dryer.
cleaned up the tooth brushing stuff in the bathroom.
took the laundry downstairs.
put the dog out.

and now, I'm off to do some more.

pictures will be coming tonight or tomorrow. :)

Rambling

2009-01-05T14:21:00.003-05:00

I've only got a few minutes, so this will be pretty short and probably all random stuff.
For those of you that are new here, I'm a major procrastinator with most things. Especially house work and stuff like that. I do like to do it and get it done, but when I have a time limit then I'm shot. You will usually find me on here posting about what I need to do, rather than just doing it. :D yep, that's me. lol

Anyway, today I got a few things done that I wanted to do, but most of my day felt shot by the time I took Trevor to school at 11, then went to the Post Office then home, it was after 11:20, and I felt like most of the day was gone... since I have to leave to pick him up in a few minutes... it is after 2:20 already.

BUT...

I did get to make a meal plan for the next two weeks!! yay! I have been meaning to do that for a while now. I'm sick of making and eating the same things all the time so this will maybe give us some variety and also then there will be no need for guessing on what to make for dinner, I will have a plan set. I wrote it all out and even made my grocery list to go with it. I'm also going to try to get Bryan to go grocery shopping tonight so that I can really stick to my meal plan.

I also did a project with the girls. Sort of pre-school related, because we were working with fine motor skills, lacing beads and learning the colors and shapes of the beads. :) And, best of all it was fun. We had a few moments when the girls got frustrated and walked away, but because I stayed calm and cheerful they came back quickly.

I took some pictures of them doing the beads. I was trying to edit out my messy house, but then figured I would take some pictures of that too. Then do the mad dash to clean it up and see how much I could get done after I get home with T-man but before Bryan is home tonight. Then I can post some "after" pictures of how much I was able to get done.

I'm sure this is all very interesting to you all!! lol probably not, but this is what kind of motivates me to get things done. Sort of a challenge and also the chance to get to show what I did get to do today. :)

*HOLY SHIT! ~ a huge spider just crawled out from under my monitor... OMG!! ugh! thank God I'm not that afraid of spiders... it startled me but didn't freak me out totally. ** LOL

I took a picture of the interruption, and will post it later with the other pictures! :)

So for a 1/2 day, because that is what I'm considering it I feel like I did quite a bit. The meal planning is definitely helpful and the girls and I got some time together doing fun stuff... so that is really really important to me. :) I need to do a lot more of this with them. :)

I'll be back to post pictures when I'm home from getting my lil' man from school. It takes too long for me to do it now.

Delayed

2009-01-05T10:10:00.004-05:00

I'm not sure how today is going to go. We are starting off with a two hour delay for Trevor. It would have been nice if we were all able to sleep in for two extra hours, but that never seems to be the case.

The kids were in bed last night before 8 PM, which was a good thing. We need to work on our bedtime routine and time a little bit more. Before we moved they were in bed by 8:30 PM at the latest. But, since we have moved, they are in bed around 9:30 PM, sometimes earlier, but mostly around 9:30 and I'm not even sure they are sleeping by quarter to ten. That is way too late when they are getting up around 7:20 - 7:30 in the mornings.

I think a bedtime of 8 or 8:15 PM is good. We'll have to see how tonight goes.

I went to bed at a descent time, but didn't sleep well thinking about what time I had to get up and the stuff I had to do in the morning to get us all out of the house to take Bryan to work and then take Trevor to school. I tossed and turned all night long. :(

~Jenn I hope that Brandi had a good night after being so upset and worried about homework. That just breaks my heart. I'm sure once she got to school she was relieved to find out you were right that she wasn't missing any homework and all was good. :) I hope they all had a good first day back to school!!

As for working on pre-school stuff with the girls today, I think that maybe will will work on one small thing... that might not even be considered something more than just playing, but we will at least do that. The two hour delay puts me totally off schedule.

I do have to walk out the door in a few minutes to take Trevor to school. But will be home after a trip to my parents and the post office. I want to do something with the girls and I really want to get most if not all of my Christmas decorations down... so I'm shooting for some. lol You have to set realistic goals though if you want to be able to meet them. :)

When I come back I think I have some pictures to post. I will probably post them over at my Priceless Pictures blog, so I'll let you all know.

Back To School

2009-01-04T17:40:00.002-05:00

Trevor goes back to school tomorrow. I was kind of worried about how this would go. After being off for so many days, due to weather, conferences and winter break. BUT thankfully it is going to be easy peasy! Trevor cannot wait to get back to school.

We told him on Saturday morning that he was going to go back to school on Monday, so in two days. I was expecting moaning and groaning... but had the pleasant surprise of him being happy. He was smiling from ear to ear and jumping around the bed.

Today while I was talking to my mom on the phone, I had said how Trevor was looking forward to going to back to school, and then asked him what he was looking forward to the most. His answer was priceless! He said he was looking forward to going back to school to get to learn more things and new stuff. :) What a dang smarty he is.

I'm so happy that he is loving school this year. He hated it in years past and it was a real struggle to send him. I hated that he wasn't happy there and missed him terribly. I still miss him, but a lot less knowing that he is happy there and really having a good time.

His teacher is wonderful. And, to be honest I had huge doubts about her before he entered her class. I even tried to change his teacher, but the principal convinced me to just start the year off with her, give it a try and see how it worked out. I haven't ever been so happy to be wrong about something. I really thought this wasn't going to be the right class for him. And, now *blush* I realize just how wrong I was. They say that things happen for a reason and also that they have a way of working themselves out... man am I glad that is true for this situation.

Tomorrow after taking Trevor to school, the girls and I will probably head over to my parents house, because we haven't been there in ages, although no one will be home. :( *sniff, sniff* we miss seeing my parents as much as we used to when we lived only down the road. Anyway, I'm not sure if I will work on some things there or come home and work on it, but the girls and I are going to have our first test run of home school pre-school. I want to work on some things with them to get them prepared for pre-school in the Fall. Also, I know they are so very smart and could really know a lot more than they do if I just worked with them some. Plus it will give us something to do during the day and be the first step to my "New Year To Do List" of organizing time and life and every day stuff. I want to spend more time with the girls even though I'm home with them all the time, it isn't the same as actually doing things with them.

Things we are going to work on:

~ Letters
~ Sounds of Letters
~ Writing their names
~ Numbers
~ Counting
~ Learning their phone number
~ Colors - although they pretty much know all the colors we will still con't to work on this.
~ Shapes
~ Cutting
~ Pasting

just regular pre-school stuff. And actually if anyone has any ideas for things to do with the girls for learning or games, and you don't mind sharing, I would greatly appreciate any advice and tips you have.

Well this is all for now. I have a headache and think I'll go take a nice warm bath and relax some. Our busy day tomorrow will be here before I know it. I will definitely be around some time to update on our pre-school day and Trevor's first day back to kindergarten.

bored

2009-01-04T14:15:00.002-05:00

today i'm bored.
there is plenty to do, but for some reason i have little to no focus or ambition.
i want to do something, but nothing that is here for me to do.

yesterday we took a trip to just get out of the house and walk around the mall.
window shop.
on our way the truck started making a HORRIBLE noise... sort of like a flat tire.

but, it got way worse.
we stopped.
it was our brakes.

we went in to Lowe's and looked around.
got back in the truck to go to the mall.
noise is worse.
brakes seized.
tires locked up.

we are in traffic.
Bryan gives it gas.
something breaks free.
we go.

we have to stop again.
holy shit.
we stop.
we can't get going again.
almost get rear ended.

we move.
HORRIBLE noise again.
we are thinking the worse.
big $$$$$$.
possible tow.

Bryan calls his brother.
he comes.
they try to find parts.
the calliper is ripped off.
bolt broken.

auto stores say no good.
discontinued part.

new truck?
i wish.

not today.
they go to Lowe's.
found the right bolt.

go to Sears.
get the right wrench.

problem solved.
truck is good.

yay!

thank God my BIL and my dad and brothers know how to fix stuff because other wise it would have been a LOT of money for us to have the truck towed and then fixed. ugh. it ended up costing us about $50 total. not too shabby. we were thinking a LOT more than that.

April Showers

2009-01-03T16:44:00.002-05:00

What do April Showers Bring??? FREE stuff!!

Wait did I totally copy that from you April? ~ sorry. lol

Anyway... I found from April at Delta Kids ~ she is on my blog roll go check her out ~ that April from April Showers is having a bloggy give away!! REALLY cool stuff too. Stuff from MARK. (avon) and also a gift card to Bath & Body Works!!

I totally want to win, but hey, I'm gracious enough to give you all the chance to win too!! :) You know that's how I roll... plus you can't enter unless you post about her giveaway. lol

BUT, in my defense I soooo would have told you all anyway... because I love ya! :) Good Luck... well yeah... I guess I mean it. Good luck. (but I hope I win!) lol

Today

2009-01-02T12:29:00.002-05:00

Today is a new day. A fresh start. And I? I am going to be greedy and grab right on to this free chance to start new!

Amazing how, life just gives you so many new shots at doing things right or better or even just different. Every day that we open our eyes is a new chance. Don't let it pass you by, and please don't take it for granted, you never know when the time will come that your eyes just won't open again to a new day.

Post 561

2009-01-01T21:53:00.002-05:00

Happy New Year Everyone!! :)

It is actually 2009! Wow. How did that happen? I remember when it was going to be 2000 and everyone was in a panic that the world would shut down because of not being able to register the 00 as a year. We sure have come a LONG way since then.

New Years Eve brought about a few things... mostly friends, family and good times. Of course, in the world of Jenn it also brought some drama and chaos... but that all got worked out, for the most part and I'm done with it.

I'm having a stress free year. I'm going to learn to let stuff go and look forward... that is the only way to go. You can never go back, and really, who would want to?

I never made it to my 365 posts for 2008, but I did get pretty close, and honestly I'm pretty happy with that. The most important thing about blogging and doing all this is all the people I have met and the amazing friendships that have formed.

I cannot wait to spend another year with all of you and read all your blogs and hear all about your lives. :)

Cheers to an awesome new year. xoxox